Maybe Yes?

Troubling Times

AN: Everyone is being so nice thank you all so much :)

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Grey's POV

    I thought that Tyler, Ricky, and Carl would take me to a "secret" restaurant that only they went to. Just like it happens in the movies. Instead we went in Carl's van where he drove to an abandoned building in the sketchy part of town. Then the drugs came out.

"Hey man want some? You can just pay me back later." Ricky said to me. I know I shouldn't be disappointed, but I thought that my new friends were the good guys. Not some druggies that wanted me to buy drugs from them.

"No, um that's not something I am interested in." I needed a way to get out of this. I didn't have a car so I either had to walk back or convince Carl to drive me home.

"It's no biggie just try a smoke." This time Tyler tried convincing me. Didn't they understand? I wasn't interested.

"I think I will just go does.."

"We brought you out here and this is how you act? Tyler I thought you said this guy was cool." Ricky impatiently said. Tyler started to look mad. This did not look good.

"I'm sorry I just don't want to." I hoped they would understand.

"Grey if you want to be my friend and fit in then you need to man up and take a smoke." There it was again. Man up. To become a man I have to do drugs? Who determines what to be a man means? Everyone has a different perspective and I don't think doing drugs makes you more of a man, but I still wanted friends. Would this be worth all the trouble?

"Fine I'll try it. How do I do it?" I asked. I was a pushover. Tyler started showing me how to smoke. After awhile everything became hazy I felt better than I had ever before. Then the darkness swallowed me up and I passed out.

When I woke up I was still in the abandoned building. I looked around and saw that I was alone. I checked outside and Carl's van was gone. They must have ditched me. I looked at my phone to check the time.

"Ah shoot!" I said aloud. It was already 6:30 I was gonna miss dinner. I looked around again and realized I had no idea how to get back. I opened my GPS app and looked for the way home. I had to walk 12 miles, this was going to take awhile. As I was walking my thoughts turned darker. 'Why couldn't I just make normal friends. People that would actually like me and not use me. Tyler said he would be my friend but obviously he lied. Was there something wrong with me?' I kept pondering these thoughts over and over in my head. My feet were sore, my school had a dress code that required dress shoes. I could feel my blisters forming.

By the time I had gotten home the sun was beginning to set.

"Grey where the hell have you been? The school called and said you skipped class." My mother said with an angry look on her face. I felt like I was going to cry. I just wanted someone to comfort me. Not put me down and make me feel worse.

"I was with some friends." I whispered. I didn't want to get in more trouble.

"There's dinner in the fridge help yourself. Your father and I are going to a movie and Kaley is at a friends house." She finished and left to go to the movie.

When I heard their car start and leave I opened the fridge. I started grabbing leftovers and frozen meals. I ate and ate and ate. I felt the tears streaming down my face. Shame, embarrassment, loneliness, and despair drove me to keep eating.

When I was finished I cleaned everything up. My life was a mess but the kitchen didn't have to be. I went upstairs to show and start my homework. My classes were so much harder than my last school. I had to study more if I wanted good grades.

I began thinking again as I was showering. 'What was I going to do? Should I keep the same friends or should I get new ones? Should I tell my parents what happened today or keep it a secret? The thoughts kept coming until I had a painful headache. Why was my life a mess?'

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AN: Thanks for reading I will be posting again shortly.