Illicit Affection

Chapter Two

I stormed out of the ice cream place and began running where ever my feet takes me. The tears invaded my eyes as I sprinted through the stray crowd. I needed to go home to hide my humiliated face. The ice cream dripped inside my bra and raced down my stomache as I kept running. The ice cream was now sticky on the upper half of my sking and my shirt that I recently just bought with my mom.

"Jamie ! Jamie ! Wait Up! Shit !" I heard Cameron desperately yell after me. I stopped running and swiftly wiped away my stray tears before I turned around. Cameron finally reached me with a handful of napkins in his hand. His hair was all over the place and his face was drenched with sweat.

"Damn J, I didn't know you were a track star. You had me running down the plaza like I was on the field. Now I feel like I have asthma or some shit" He said breathing heavily. Cam handed me the napkins to wipe my shirt with. I slightly smiled.

"I'm sorry Cameron. It's just I needed to leave as fast as I could. You know?" I accepted the napkins and began wiping of the chocolate ice cream off my blouse. Cameron shook his head.

"No need to explain" He sat down on the end of the sidewalk and I quickly joined him. We sat in silence as we watched the cars drove by on the road and the circulation of busy plaza. I looked at the happy faces of the world. From the sun shining brightly unto the earth to the families and friends shoppping together with joy. Why can't I be giddy like everyone else. That's easy, because I'm not like everyone else. I sighed as I began to sink in my dark thoughts.

"To think I should be use to this by now, all this turmoil I been through constantly. You'll think I should be amune to it , but the funny thing is I'm not. It's seems as if I wake up everyday blind from the past. I just walk through life with some hope of change like I can be somwhere in life I always wanted to be. But that same fanasty fails to achieve every got damn time. Like shit, I'm so stupid for even think optimisticly when all I get in the outcome is a rotten, crush spirt" I expressed, looking blankly ahead. I could feel Cameron staring at me closely as if he tryng to study me.

I exhaled loudly in depression. I placed my head in my lap as I stared at my bare hands while I hear Cam begining to speak.

"There's certainly nothing wrong with being optimistic J. Although things aren't looking up, you have the power to change every thing thats wrong in your life at the moment. I'm not trying to sound like a commercial script or anything, but Jame your allowing these kids to walk over you. I see the way you are treated. Shit, I don't even like it. Yeah I probably won't understand what your going through mentally but I know you need to put those fast ass chicken legs of yours down and show them what's up" I chuckled as his statement. He laughed along with me as we shared a nice moment. I lifted my head up and stared at him. He licked his lips while his eyes roamed my face. My stomach had weird feeling of anticipation. There was a silence as we bascally stared at each other. I don't know was it an affectionate moment of lust or was it a friendly type of matter.

Cameron stared at me for a few more moments then looked back straight ahead. I followed his que and looked at the road.

"Bottiom line is that Jame I care for you, a lot. I love you so much that I can't dare see you like this anymore. It hurts not only you, but me and Cathy. We're standing by you whether you know or not. Like now for instance, Cathy was just finishing cursing out Tiffany and her friends out at the Dairy Queen after you stormed out crying" He informed me. I looked down sorrowfully. "She did?" I asked softly. I didn't want Cathy to get hurt by fighting my battles. This can hurt her reputatuon for sticking up for me. It's a;ready bad enough her and her brother hangs out with me. I don't want to ruin her or Cameron just because of me. Cameron nodded.