Illicit Affection

Chapter Three

"We'll be at the house in 15 minutes" Cathy told Cameron through his window. I stared at Cameron for awhile before I got out of Cam's jeep and went to my car.

"Alright. Be safe." Cameron saluted before backing away from the parking spot. I smiled as I watched him leave. 

"Get in the car. You have a lot of things to explain missy" Cathy said jumping in the passenger seat.

"What is there to explain? Nothing happened" I lied, starting the car up. Cath smacked her lips.

"Don't lie to me, I can tell your lying because your voice got all squeaky just now" I rolled my eyes. I swear she knows everything my mother knows about me. They talk like they're best friends or something. It's strange as hell. I sighed.

"Fine. Cameron just kissed me that's all" I quickly explained. Cathy screamed. "OMG! I knew it ! I knew it ! . . . So are you guys. . .you know. .   together now?" She asked. My eyebrows frowned as I looked at her.

"No, no. We just kissed. It's not that major" I explained. I can't date Cameron. I just can't. He's perfect but it won't feel right when Cathy's around.

"What ? Why ? Cameron really likes you ! Are you playing my brothers heart like it''s a fucking toy?" Cathy asked. I sighed. This is why I don't want this. They play brother-sister roles on the regular and I don't want to be in the mix of losing both of my friendships. The only ones I have.

"No. I'm not. It's just. . . I need sometime to think okay? I don't want to mess with Cam's emotions. It's just. . .  I don't know" I was beyond confused. I wanted Cam but our friendship and Cathy is holding me back. Plus, I still like Matthew but he hasn't notice me yet. I know it's stupid but  before    I decide or do anything, I want to meet Matt for myself. You now explore my options before I jump head first.

"What's so hard about being with Cameron? He loves you, he's there for you, he's what you need. Matthew isn't anything compared to Cam. Plus the kid don't know if you even damn exist. Get over it. It's a yes or no for Cam. What's the problem J? You need to open you goddamn eyes before you lose someone who actually care for you. Stop acting like a naive child for once ! " Cathy snapped at me.  Tear pierced my eyes but they did not leave my eyes.

"Just. . . shut up. . .ok?... please" I whispered. I shook my head and paid attention back to the road. The silence and tension was thick in the air. The whole ride there, nobody said a word. 

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We arrived at Cam's & Cathy's home faster than expected because I took a short cut. I couldn't be in this car any longerr with Cathy right now. As soon as I parked the car behind Cam's jeep, Cathy stormed out of the car, slamming my car door.

I exhaled a deep breath. I rested my head back and closed my eyes. Why does it feels this way? I feel like I already lost them. Over what ? Cameron ? . I decided to leave and go home. I left unannouced before even saying anything to anyone. I know it's rude but I just want to be home. Alone to think and cool off and take a long ass hot shower.

 

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2 hours later. . . . 

"123,123 Drink. 123,123 Drink, 123. Throw em' back till I lose count ! . .  II'm going swiinggg from the chanderlier, from the chanderlieeerr ! .. IIII'm going to livee like tomorrow doesn't exiistt, like it doesn't exiiiistt " I nodded as I listened to Sia was on the radio. Of course I was attempting to sing  the high notes, resulting to me sounding like a dying kangaroo pig. I was home now just listening to music in the kitchen. I was extra hungry and decided to cook my famous shrimp pasta just for myself. I throw it down in the kitchen- thanks to my amazing grandmother. 

Here I was, in nothing but a bra and underwear cooking on the stove. I know it sound's weird but when my mom's not here, I take this time to run around the house naked or half naked. When my mom is here, I feel like I'm in captivity of rules with her.  When she is gone, I feel free as hell and I can do whatever I want and being naked is my cup of tea.

I smiled as I finished my 5 star dish. I looked at the plate as my stomach was practically begging for it. Just when I was about to stuff my face, the damn door bell ranged. The devil has perfect timing. I sighed. Just my luck ehh? I threw my fork down and  I grumpliy made my way to the door with anger. 

I let out a fustrated sigh as I grabbed my robe from the coat closet before checking the peep hole. I squinted my eyes as I seen two figures in front of my door. I flicked on the porch light as I seen Cameron and Cathy by my door. Anger instantly boiled inside of me. 

I rolled my eyes. Its been over an hour and they now want to show up to my door? I could be dead for all they care. I wasn't even ready to face Cathy yet because I knew she already told her brother everything. Cameron was either on her side, my side, or on nobody's side.

 I snatched opened the door and stared at my two friends. Cathy was behind Cameron with her arms folded like she still had an atitude. I just looked at her like I once knew her, but now it feels like I don't. I stared at her longer than I should of because Cameron cleared his throat to get my attention.

"Uh.. Hey J..can we come in?" Cameron asked breaking the tension. My eyes cut toward him. My cheeks began to burn from embarrassment. I moved to the side as they walked in. I shut the door while they took a seat in the living room. Both of their eyes watched me as I sat on the loveseat. Its crazy because at the moment I don't feel any love. My nerves was kicing. My anxiety was rising . I also had a weird, ichy sensation on the palms of my hands. I hate being put on the spot or any type of tension.

"Damn it smells good as hell in here J. What did you cook?" Cameron asked, sniffing the air. I smiled with a litle relief. Leave it to Cameron to ease the death silence.

"Shrimp pasta" I responded. I purposely watched Cathy as her eyes slightly widen. I smirked. Cathy adores my cooking, especially my shrimp pasta. Its her personal favorite and mines too.  Her and Cam eats mostly everything from my house that I cook since her parents are healthy eaters. Cathy saw my smirk and she let out a fake coughed before she looked around, eyes advoiding mine. 

 

I let out a long breath. I mind as well get comfortable because it going to be a long ass night the wat this is going. I leaned back on my chair and cross my legs together. I watched as Camerons eyes instantly flicked down. I followed his glance to my bare legs and thighs.  I literally forgot I was in a robe with my underwear underneath and here I was showing skin to the guy that likes me with his overprotective sister in the room, scowling me.

My ears and face became on fire as he bit his lips. I slowly placed my legs down. I let out a nervous laugh as I stratched my neck, even though there was no itch.

"So...uhm what brings you guys here?" I asked them.

"Why did you leave so soon?" Cameron wondered, completely advoiding my question. 

I looked at Cathy with confusion. Had she not told him what happened in the car? Maybe he thought something else happened? But why would she not tell him?.  Cathy, as if she heard my thoughts, shook her head, no. I let out a relief laugh. Cameron rosed his eyebrow at me in worry and confusion.

"Uhm...I just needed some time alone. You know with all that happened today, nothing biggy. You could have texted me if you wanted to know." I exclaimed.

"I did, but you didn't answer" He shrugged facing me but I quickly looked away.