Dear Architect

Dear architect, 

It has been 660days since I met you on the online app. Yeah tanda ko pa yun, that was May 12, 2015. Summer vacation. It was the very first time when I tried that. Sa dami din ng nakachat ko dun, ikaw lang ang tumagal ng ganito. Ang abnoy kasing kausap nung karamihan. Ikaw iba ka kausap. Ang saya mong kausap. I really like your emoticons. Ang sweet mo pa.

I felt happy every time we chat, every time we exchange messages, every time you send me those emoticons of yours, messages telling me to eat, etc. Yes architect, within one year and ten months of talking to you I feel it that you are a good person, a man having a good heart. At hinding hindi ako magsasawa na makipag-usap sayo. Sana ikaw din. L

Masaya ako na naging friends tayo. I really admire you a lot. Yung pagiging kwela at joker mo. Yung mga simpleng jokes mo bentang benta talaga sken. Yung ka-monggi-han mo pak na pak din sa akin. Kita mo naman sa mga reply ko sa mga chat natin. Haha. Hanga din ako sa angking galing mo sa pagdodrawing. Malamang kaya ka nga future architect eh. Hehehe. Hobby ko din kasi ang pagpipinta pero noon yun, ngayon kasi wala na akong time eh.

Alam mo yung hindi naman ako naniniwala dati sa stranger na nakilala lang sa online kasi maraming manloloko, marami ang hindi totoo. But the moment na dumating ka sa buhay ko, I feel so blessed. I don't regret giving you my phone number the moment you asked for it. Naniniwala na ako na pede palang may maging kaibigan ka sa online world. Maraming salamat architect kasi dahil sayo. I am forever grateful because you came along and give me motivation. Maraming salamat sa lahat lahat. Salamat sa pag-alala palagi, salamat sa mga messages ng "Good morning teacher. Goodnight teacher, sweetdreams, Kumain ka na ba? Kain ka na. Ingat ka palagi. Wag mo pababayaan sarili mo." Simple messages but can make someone smile. Sobrang na-appreciate ko yun kahit di ko alam kung may meaning ba sayo yun, maybe it's just a simple thing to you but for me, it means a lot. Salamat.

October 30, 2015 – This was the night of the very first time I heard your voice. Tanda mo ba? You sent me a "goodnight" voice message which I have requested from you. I never thought that you will do it because you refused to, but that one word put a curve on my lips. "Asan yung goodnight ko?", you asked. Then it makes my heart jumped a million times. Kinakabahan kasi ako. Baka hindi mo magustuhan boses ko. Baka mapangitan ka sa boses ko. Nakakahiya. Pero andaya naman kung hindi ko gagawin di ba so I sent a voice mail too. "Nice voice", you said. Kahit alam kong ginaya mo lang yung compliment ko sayo still napangiti ulit ako.

October 31, 2015 Saturday, this was the night when you called me. OMG! As in OMG! I arrived from school then saw your name on the screen. MISSED CALL. I waited few minutes for a text saying "Sorry teacher, napindot ko." Kasi last time na nakita ko din yung name mo sa Missed call may text ka agad na sorry kasi napindot mo. But that time there's none. Sabi ko, "Hala tumatawag nga yata toh."

So, I texted you, asking if you were really calling.

Then, you were calling again. I do not know what to do. Nakatitig lang ako sa name mo sa screen habang nagriring. At sa pagtitig ko. Tumigil uli pagriring. Natapos na siguro. Then ayun, tumawag ka uli and this time sinagot ko na. October 31. This is the date of our first call conversation na umabot ng halos 170 minutes na nagtapos sa walang katapusang goodnight. Yung goodnight na parang nakikita ko yung ngiti mo.

Hindi mo alam kung gaano kalaki ang lawak ng ngiti ko when you told me that you feel motivated every time I cheer you. "Oo nga teacher, promise. Yung feeling ba na pag may exam ang sakit na ng ulo ko kasi wala na ako maisagot pero pag naalala ko yung pagmomotivate mo sken biglang andami ko naiisagot.. parang magic. Ang galing nga eh."

Ako din naman eh.. naiinspire mo ko ng sobra. Pwede pala yun ano? Kahit di mo pa nakikilala in person ang isang tao. You can feel inspired and motivated always? Natutuwa din ako na binabasa mo yung mga stories ko. Lalo ang sarap sa feeling pag kino-compliment mo mga gawa ko. Feeling ko ang galing-galing kong writer. Alam mo yun? I AM NOT A GOOD WRITER, BUT YOU ARE MY BEST READER. Every time you compliment my work I feel like I won the Nobel Prize award. You're one of the reasons why I keep on writing.