iKon Imagines [ REQUEST ]

Goodbye

" um, Hey. Still remember me? I hope you're doing fine because I'm not. Just wanted to say that, i miss you and I'm sorry for everything. Year had passed, and still.. you're in my mind. How's life there? Everything great? I know, I've been missing but I'll always remember you. Your face, your smile, your scent and your love for me. I miss you, Hana."

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HANBIN POV
--1 year earlier--

It's been 3 years we've been together, I can't wait to be yours forever Hana. This is what I've always wanted. I'm so happy when I got you while everyone else was trying so hard to get you. You're so special. I adore you so much hana.

"Love, are you ready to be mine?" I asked in deep voice while looking into her beautiful eyes . So cute. "I'm all yours Hanbin, I'm hoping you make the first step. But, are you sure?" She asked.

Are you sure?" She asked.. am i ready for this? Hanbin, are you sure about this?

I've been living in depression for many years, I've been living in my dark world. I've always hoping that there's someone that can heal this broken heart. I choose you hana, But.. is this real love? Or just a fake love?

"Hanbin? You okay? What we're you thinking? Is there something you're hiding from me? Please, Tell me." She looked at me with sad eyes.

Please, please..

" Nothing is on my mind" i smiled. "It's getting late, lets go back. I drive you home okay?" I hold tight her hands and we walked to the car.

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"Drive safe dear. Please, if anything wrong just tell me right away. I'm ready to listen. Hanbin, I love you. Goodnight." She smiled . She looked hurt. I'm sorry.

I arrived home, going bed without changing my clothes. I lay down, I started to think. We've been together for 3 years, and I've made it through. Please heart, don't do this to me. I love her, so bad.

I cried and I smoke. I know this is the only medicine I need to heal my depression. Being depression is the worst thing that ever happened to me. I hate that, i hate the fact that I'm living in this dark world. I can't be me, i can't be with someone i love. I'm a broken glass.

My phone rang, it's a text from hana.

" Hanbin? You awake? Um, just wanted you to know that, I'm sorry if I've done something bad that makes you feel sorry or anything. I know it's been 3 years but ... i have this feelings that, you're not in love with me. Am i the only one that thinks that? Because, everyday i felt that you're forcing yourself to love me. I'm sorry i said this. I love you so damn much hanbin. Love you so bad ! But, i need you to know this , don't love someone just because you wanted to heal yourself. Don't used me, it hurts. I'm sorry if I don't understand you, but I got feelings too, I need to be loved too, I need true love . To be healed, you have to first believe in yourself. I love you, Hanbin. I guess, we should end here. Thank you for everything, these 3 years is memorable for me. I wish you a luck"

I know this will happened.

I know.

I..

Know..

I guess, thats the end now.

And again, I smoke. Smoking makes me feel better.

I felt the pain is growing in me, it's getting bigger. Ha ha.. depression.. Why you exists.

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After a year, I looked up social media and found out that Hana is engaged. I'm happy for her,but at the same time i feel hurt. She looked so happy there in the picture.

If only, that guy was me.

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HANA POV

I got text from Hanbin after a year, I hope he's doing fine.

"Um, Hey Hana. Still remember me? First of all, I wanted to say Congratulations on your engagement day. I hope you're happy with someone that love you so much. I hope he's the one that you're looking for. Me? I'm doing fine. Thank you hana. I Just wanted to say that, i miss you and I'm sorry for everything. Year had passed, and still.. you're in my mind but i want you to know that I'll always remember you, Your face, your smile, your scent and your love for me. I miss you, Hana. Goodbye. "