A/N WARING I DON'T OWN THIS STORY
THE ORIGINAL STORY
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Subaru! Stop it!" The full moon's rays forced their enter through the window to which was framed by wine colored curtains. You tried to push the albino male away as his practical thirst for your life's essence radiated off of him in a life endangering manner. Panicked breaths escaped your lips as you tried with all your body's strength, but he grabbed your wrist. "You have no right to deny me," came his gruff response as he slammed you up against the wall with your wrists pinned. His knee forced it's way between your legs, and you were stuck with struggling in attempt to free yourself; kicking him where the sun never shone was a resort that was lost now.
The memory brought tears to your eyes as your body trembled beneath the sheets, slowly pulling them off of the bed as you rose to see that the person you wished to see was gone.
"I'm a monster," he'd whispered one day, on the first day he didn't call you any name. His eyes slowly rose themselves from the dull, tiled floor of the abandoned school hallway; crimson hues gazing into your eyes. "I'm not capable of love, so remember that."
But somehow, he'd come so far, so far as to even create better memories. And you'd fallen for him, seeing a side to him that was hidden behind this angry exterior. To you, he was this hurt animal; any hurt animal had the instinct to lash out at anyone in the attempt of survival. You arrived to your bathroom's mirror, and slowly lowered the blankets to see the bite marks he left you with, causing you to cringe as you recalled how you'd gotten them.
His fangs sunk into your neck, making a sound similar to that of someone biting into the ripest apple; and the feel of blood escaping your vein to which he'd bitten into made your face distort into a cringe. Soft cries escaped your lips, but it seemed to only add to his pleasure as his fangs sunk deeper into your skin making a gasp escape your throat from how harsh it was. "S-stop it! Subaru!" You roared, puffing out your chest the best way you could, in attempt to end this terror. Blood rushed down from your wound, and he withdrew, pushing down your clothing in a hasty manner, with bites beginning to litter your skin.
"Shut up," he hissed at you. "I'm not opposed by that fear in your eyes," he murmured as he stared at your skin, pushing you up even more against the wall. "I told you, I'm not capable of love." He growled.
"I hate you," you whispered in the present, the spur of the moment as you drowned in the memories consumed you. "I love you." You covered the bite mark he'd pressed onto your skin, tears welling in your eyes. "I hate that I love you, Subaru." You turned away, letting the blankets fall to the tiled flooring of your bathroom as you got yourself into your shower, the memories of what had happened rolling through your mind like the storm clouds that rolled over the blue sky.
It hadn't been long until he'd pushed you onto the bed, looming over you to lick at your bleeding wounds. The bed sheets tainting themselves in droplets of your blood, before you finally were able to bring your hand up as to slap him. "Snap out of it, Subaru!" You screamed. And there was a harsh moment where he pinned your wrists down above your head, staring into your eyes before it seemed to have finally clicked and he let go. Completely. And like a ghost, he was gone.
It was an hour or two later, when you were finally able to step out into the sun's rays, and rushed away towards a park that was alone; children were off in schools, getting their education. So the ringing of their laughter did not grace the air, and you took a seat upon a chocolate colored bench. Above, there was looming branches of the cherry blossoms that surrounded the beautiful park, the sun tainted in a pink tinge from the beautiful blossoms.
"You're probably tired of me," your voice came out in a whisper. "You're an idiot." Subaru had responded to you as he leaned all the way back, propping up his elbow on the bench of the backrest of it. "I can be tired of a lot of other things, but I'm never tired of you." He said. Blinking once, you were surprised by his words, before you looked down. "So shut up, you're making me say stupid things."
"Sorry." You meekly responded with a sheepish grin on your lips as he watched you from the corner of his eye, his gaze making you blush beneath it, hiding your face as you thought the male was extremely handsome. And to be beneath his gaze was almost nerving.
"Hey! You!" Called out a voice that made you turn your head, just in time to see a bouquet of roses, and a box of chocolate that was suddenly thrown on your lap. "Take these damn roses, and take the candy, and shut up." Subaru's gruff voice arrived to your ears as you gazed up at him. He plopped right down beside you, taking his seat with you on the bench beneath the cherry blossom tree. He seemed as if he had something he wanted to say, before you could part your lips to let words escape, he spoke.
"Look, I'm sorry, damn it. I told you, I'm a monster!" He shouted, his rage surprising you. Noting such a alarm, he shrunk back slightly, knowing his mistake before he shook his head. His breath began to grow heavy before he shook his head. "I hate you!" He outburst, but then he reeled it back, and shook his head. "Fucking damn it! I love you," he reached out, and grabbed you by the shoulders. In the instant his atmospheric tension diminished as his crimson eyes so full of fierceness softened.
"I want you, and no one can top you. I lied, when I said I wasn't capable of love; you proved me wrong." He murmured as he leaned his face in more as his lips pressed to yours briefly, pulling away in a shy manner as a blush coated his cheeks. "You took down the caution tape I had around my heart...and you entered, I'm sorry I did what I did. I couldn't hold myself back," all other times he'd managed to hold his thirst back, but that night had been the true moment. Grabbing the roses and candy, he pulled you onto his lap, and held you tightly, burying his face into your neck; his lips pressing against the mark he did.
"I'll try not to make it happen again, but I can't make any promises." He added silently, before he reached out, and gently opened up the box of chocolates, however, his pale hand took a moment to stop before his eyes wandered over towards your face as to survey your emotions. You did not speak, not a single word escaping your lips, as you were reflecting everything. Every word like a beam of sunlight that a flower took in from days of no sun. Soaking all that it could in. "Hey, what the hell's wrong with you? It's not the blood loss, is it?" Subaru's wary voice came to greet your ears, like the water to that flower that held no sun.
"Hey," he murmured once more, his cool hand slowly touching your warm face, the cold sensations were electrifying to every fiber of your being; so much that you shivered in response before casting your gaze to his eyes, where it was evident he held your attention. For a few seconds, the two of you stayed frozen, before you were just about to speak and a piece of chocolate was pushed through your lips.
"Don't say anything, (Y/N), just know I'm really sorry." There was something else to it, his eyes almost growing with melancholy as you came to realize he'd regretted speaking of what was written on his heart. And it was almost as if he'd grown bashful, as you swallowed and opened your mouth, you grabbed his wrist, with your other hand you removed the candy that was between his fingers, and placed it onto the tray, lacing your fingers together as you pressed your cheek on his shoulder.
"Don't be sorry, Subaru, and don't regret anything because at one time; you wanted to say what you did, right?" With your other hand, you gently caressed the skin of his cheek as he gazed to you. Frozen like a deer in the headlights, before he subtly began to melt into your touch, his shoulders angling downward, and his eyes softening. "Right," he responded quietly. "So don't take it back, not when.... Not when I love you too." You whispered as you smiled softly. But then, it wasn't long until he slid his free hand up your back before pushing you to him so that by a bull's eye shot that your lips joined together. The gently sway of the cherry blossom made the branches lose some of their rosy petals, just so that it rained in clear day pink petals.
Pulling back to see petals land onto Subaru's hair, and feel some land on yours, another sway arrived making more fall; all of the petals were pierced by the clear daylight so they looked like pink flames falling. In clear fascination, you looked around. "Wow, it's so beautiful," you whispered ever so subtly.
Pressing his face into your neck once more with his thumb gently massaging small circles onto the back of your hip, the albino grumbled.
"It's not as beautiful as you."
