Loving Pain

Chapter 1

A few moments before the break up

The boyish girl whose name is Akira Kurosaki, was getting worried because of the toughest decision she had ever known. She decided to talk to her girlfriend's boy best friend named Yuto Sato to help her without telling her girlfriend. The name of her girlfriend is Erisa Kuriyama, a silly and bubbly girl.

Akira told Erisa not to talk to her first for an hour because she wanted to focus about the decision. Yuto gave her an advice for Akira about that decision. The decision was all about planning to break up or not.

Akira: Yuto... I can't decide...
Yuto: Why?
Akira: I have to break up with her because having a relationship with her is a sin... But... I can't...
Yuto: What will you choose? The good one or the better one?
Akira: Ofc the better one.
Yuto: You know which one is the better one? It is better to have a break up with her. Don't worry, break up is a part of the life.

Akira cried even more at too much speechless because she can't really accept the better one because she still loves her the most.

Akira: So it means... I have to do that later on?
Yuto: I guess so. It's up to you. Always choose the better one, okay? You will find the right person in your future.
Akira: But... Love is love, right? My father accepted me as a bisexual.
Yuto: But still, choose the better one. The more you choose it, the better effects will gonna happen.

Akira lied Yuto that she would agree with him. She ended up crying a lot because she can't accept the break up. Yuto felt bad at them because he'd support their relationship, too.

Akira: I guess... I should have a break up with her even our sparks weren't decreased...

She couldn't stop crying while planning on how to say that to Erisa.

Meanwhile, Erisa came to the church because she's a choir member and assigned to sing at the choir loft. She prayed about their pure relationship at the time if communion. She wanted her relationship to be stronger enough.

At the day of midnight, Akira suddenly called Erisa and it was also a hundredth day of their relationship. She cried immediately because she couldn't do that just for her. She ended up the call first because she is readying to say it to her that she will break her up. Erisa is confused on what she felt but also worried because she doesn't want her to cry a lot. Erisa messaged her instead.

Erisa: Akira, please don't cry...
Akira: But I can't stop thinking about it... I've been crying all day because of it... 
Erisa: What are you thinking about!?
Akira: It's about... The worst news about the two of us... But I can't tell...
Erisa: Tell me! Because crying for no reason is meaningless for me! So please, tell me! Just let me know about it to make me understand why are you crying, okay?  
Akira: But no... I don't want you to tell that because...
Erisa: Because what!?
Akira: Because I know that YOU WILL PROBABLY CRY, TOO!
Erisa: Tell me and I will try to make you better... But I don't want to cry, too...
Akira: Plus, I also don't want it to happen to you... Because I love you!
Erisa: You have to tell me about it. The truth is should be always the truth. Without lies are even better even the lies are the effect of the happiness but in a fake way of course.
Akira: One question, are you willing to hear about it...? I will tell you if you are ready. 
Erisa: I am respectfully willing to hear about that situation. You should force yourself to say it to make you feel stronger, okay?
Akira: Really?
Erisa: Yes, you should. Even that worst news will make me cry and/or hurt a lot, I am still okay. Emotions are emotions.
Akira: Okay... You sure will be getting ready, okay...?
Erisa: Yes.

And then Akira made a final call to Erisa for their memorable break up. Akira cries even more than usual because Erisa is willing to hear about the worst news.

Akira: Are you sure you want to hear about that?
Erisa: Sure. Tell me what it is.
Akira: Erisa... Won't you cry if I say this to you..?
Erisa: I hope so.
Akira: Okay... Let's have a break up.
Erisa: Wait, what!? Why the heck did you want this to finish!? My sparks aren't getting decreased just yet!
Akira: I don't... want to do that... BUT I HAVE TO!
Erisa: Why!? Tell me why!
Akira: Because... having a relationship with the same gender is a sin...
Erisa: Then why did you court me!? You must be lucky if I answered you!
Akira: Yes, you answered me and I must be lucky. But I have to finish this! Because you know what, I want your future to be better...
Erisa: What do you mean by my better future? 
Akira: It's disappointing to say this to you but... I want you to replace me with a man! Like, you know, you two could make a happy family.
Erisa: But I can't! I still love you! But why did you want me to replace you with a man!?
Akira: BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!

Erisa suddenly cried a lot because of what Akira said to her.

Erisa: Yes, I love you, too... Even our relationship is wrong... I realized that I was wrong even though I answered your court.
Akira: You know what, let's do this. Oh wait, but before that, let me hear your singing voice. I miss your voice so much... You sang the beautiful lullabies by your beautiful voice... Please...
Erisa: But my voice ain't beautiful that much because... I am crying...
Akira: Don't cry please... I don't want you to cry about it... I feel like I made you cry because of this...
Erisa: No... I am okay. You know what, even if I am crying, it's okay. Getting hurt by you? It's stll okay, don't worry... Emotions are emotions, right?
Akira: No... If I heard you crying, I might cry even more because... I don't want my precious princess to getting hurt even by me... I feel so sorry...
Erisa: I am sorry, too... I want to stop this break up... But I can't because you're right... I might let you go instead... Because I love you, too and I don't force you to stop that...
Akira: Erisa...

They cried and cried even more while planning to break themselves up.

Akira: Erisa, sing the memorable song to me...
Erisa: Hold on, I am readying to sing it...
Akira: I'll be waiting...

Erisa's song will be the song about their break up. (Title: I love you, Goodbye)

Erisa: 

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye...

Akira: Thank you... thank you so much, Erisa... This is it... Goodbye, my love...
Erisa: Goodbye.... I love you so much, Akira... You are always inside my heart even though you won't be my girlfriend anymore...
Akira: I love you, too so bad... and you will be always inside my heart... Goodbye...

Call ended

Akira cleared her nickname.
Erisa cleared her nickname.
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The relationship has now ended.