Loving Pain

Chapter 3

Discussion

Erisa asked her more trustful friends for her topic choice. Some answers are embarrassing and some are interesting. At any choices, Erisa can't do any of them because of Akira's emotions.

Erisa: What if she cried? What if she will gonna be angry? What if she will block me?

So she'll ended up not talking to her about a month instead of doing it immediately.

Meanwhile Akira, she wanted to invite her in their game but she was offline for a long time.

Akira: Erisa... I missed the moment that we play together...

They coincidentally asked themselves about a disappointing question.

"How can we have these moments if we're already done?"

Akira is still crying while playing and she had a worse result than usual. Less kills, many deaths, and few assists. Her sight became blurry at too much flow of her tears.

While Erisa, she is listening to Akira's singing voice when they were couples. Erisa sang it together while playing it. (Title: Can't Take My Eyes Off You)

Erisa:
I love you baby
And if it's quite all right
I need you baby
To warm the lonely nights
I love you baby
Trust in me when I say

Oh pretty baby
Don't bring me down I pray
Oh pretty baby
Now that I've found you stay
And let me love you, baby
Let me love you...

She suddenly cried after she did. Many of their plans aren't granted because of their break up. Their plans are their duet, meet up, and many more plans that they should've done before their breakup existed. While they can't move it on, they felt lonely even they have their own friends.

After almost a month, she finally chose the topic for their talk.

Erisa: Should I.... talk to her after the long... times?

Instead of asking her to have a comeback, she will ask her about Akira's school days. While typing, she is extremely nervous even she is trying to move it on. She gave it up instead of doing it at too much nervous.

Coincidentally, Akira is also wondering if she is okay by chatting her after a very long time when they had a broke up.

Akira: Will she still be okay to me? I guess not...

So she played her game alone instead.

After her gamings, the message popped out surprisingly and it was Erisa.

Erisa: Hello, Akira! It's been a long time with no chats! How are you today?

Akira secretly cried at her message because she would never ever message her again.

Akira: Uhmmm... hi, I guess? And yes, it's been a long time. I am getting stressed by the school task by the way.
Erisa: Stressed, eh?
Akira: Indeed. And the school works are getting harder as hell...
Erisa: I see.

Erisa is wondering if Akira's heartbreaking feelings are fading, but she wouldn't have to ask for it.

Erisa's mind: I guess I will let her stop her feelings for me instead and move on. It will be much awkward if I did...

Erisa: And hey, mind if I will gonna message you for longer?
Akira: How... long?
Erisa: As long as you free. I don't mind if you refused. I won't force you to spend this time.
Akira: Go for it, Erisa. Just do it. I will remind you for it.

Erisa wanted to say the reason but she doesn't know how to say it in a best way.

Akira: Hey, can I ask why?
Erisa: Wait a second, are you looking for a reason...?
Akira: Isn't that obvious? Of course I am.
Erisa: Hey... I guess this reason is... you don't need to know about it.
Akira: Tell me.
Erisa: No.
Akira: I said, tell me.