Loving Pain

Chapter 2

The moments after the break up

After that time of their break up, Akira can't sleep because of the perilous pain of her heart. While Erisa tried to sleep through the pain to relax herself.

Erisa: Relax, self. It's already done... and it's midnight right now. Sleep tight.

While sleeping, she is suddenly dreaming about her bride with her ex. Erisa is the bride and Akira is the groom. At the time where their purest lips are about to touch to each other, she suddenly woke up and her tears drop off. She looked at the phone and forgot to remind her that it was the 100th day of their relationship. Erisa ended up crying instead of saying to her ex "good morning".

Meanwhile, Akira blamed to herself about the break up and she might gonna move on after a year.

Akira: I ended up choosing the better one... I am so sorry, Erisa!

She cried out loud at too much blaming for herself. Her dad noticed her that she was crying.

Akira's Dad: Why are you crying, my daughter?
Akira: Dad... I ended up choosing the better one...
Akira's Dad: What was the better one?
Akira: I.... broke up with her...
Akira's Dad: Broke... up? Then why? Were your sparks decreased?
Akira: No. I broke up in a good way. But it hurts a lot! I still love her! I did it to her because I want her to realize that having a relationship with the same gender is a sin!
Akira's Dad: Sin? But love is love, right?
Akira: Yes but... I don't want her to have a worse future... Plus, I am a girl, too so I can't.
Akira's Dad: I see. I understand what you did. That's not bad for you. You will find the right person for it, don't worry.
Akira: But how? I still love her.
Akira's Dad: Wait for it, okay, my daughter?
Akira: Okay... But I might gonna move on after a year...

While Erisa feels bad about their advance plan when they finally see each other but they haven't because they broke up. Erisa visited the house of her best friend which is Yuto for his advice and comforts since he's good at making advice at Erisa's thought.

Erisa: Yuto...
Yuto: Hm?
Erisa: I have a worst news, Akira broke up with me...
Yuto: I knew it.
Erisa: How did you know!?
Yuto: She'd already told me and I gave her an advice.
Erisa: Oh. That was a good thing to do with her. Well by the way, what was the advice you gave to here?
Yuto: There are always two choices in discernment, the good and the better. Always choose the better thing for you. And apparently the better choice for her is breaking up.
Erisa: Break... up... I see... That's why she broke up with me in a good way. Now I know.
Yuto: I know that the break up is a perilous pain but hey, it's a part of the life. You should wait for the person in your life. What if your husband is cheating you? What if I talked to that person? Wait for it, okay?
Erisa: I understand. Okay, I will wait for that person. Thank you so much, Yuto!
Yuto: No problem. I am glad that you approach me to fix your problem. I'll do my best.

Erisa doesn't think that she will find something new because she can't move it on. She cried after she heard his advice because she couldn't accept the truth.

Erisa: Akira... You are always in my heart, okay? I love you until my sparks are getting empty. I'd let you go instead of extending our time of our relationship because I love you and I won't force your decision.

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Akira: Erisa, I love you more than myself. I love you even though you are now my ex. I love you more than you love me. I love you anytime until the end. You will be my always precious princess in my life. You are the best ex I've ever known. I love your sweet smile, wonderful voice, lovely laugh, adorable face, and anything more about you. I end it up because I don't want you to have a bad luck. I am so sorry. I lost my love just because I followed my brain. I still love you, Erisa.

And they haven't talked to each other for a very long time after their break up because they are trying to move on. Erisa said to herself that she could move it on but she doesn't know that she couldn't. She became dumb when it comes to love because she doesn't know about moving on to the next one since it was her first time. She doesn't believed about the first love when she hasn't been in a relationship yet until her dream came true which is she answered Akira's court.

At the day of Wednesday, Erisa hides her truest pain inside by using her silly jokes to her friends to calm herself down. While Akira is stalking about Erisa's timeline in social media because she is wondering if Erisa is okay after their break up. She looks at her old photos because she knows that she is beautiful.

Akira: Erisa... You look beautiful...

She saves any best pictures of her as a remembrance since she is a photographer. She edits, save, print, and hides to her secret place. After a few minutes, she changes her profile picture into the depression one. Unlike Erisa, she changed into her favorite fictional character to hide her pain completely. When Erisa sees Akira's profile, she feels bad and became concerned. But sadly, she didn't talk to her because her pain is still staying same as Akira.

Erisa: Akira, I feel so sorry for your pain.

Erisa didn't delete their conversation and she didn't blocked her, too because it was the most memorable break up moment she'd ever known. Akira felt thankful to her because she didn't blocked nor deleted it.

Secretly, Akira's cousin whose name is Riya Kurosaki, said anything to Erisa about what she's doing while Erisa is trying to move it on and becoming a straight person.

Riya: Erisaaaa! I have an update?
Erisa: About Akira again...? Tch, as always.
Riya: You know what, she is now stalking about you!~
Erisa: eXCUSE ME WHAT THE FUDGE!? Didn't she already know that my face is a potato one!?
Riya: She knows, but she said that you look beautiful!
Erisa: ............
Riya: What's wrong?
Erisa: It's about what is she doing. Argh, she shouldn't do that! Wouldn't she trying to move on instead!?
Riya: Huh? But she loves you-
Erisa: I know.... but still... no. I am trying to be a straight person again just for her.

When Erisa had a crush on Akira was a reason why she became bisexual. After their break up, she might be a straight person again.

Riya: Trying to move on, eh? But you still love her?
Erisa: I have no idea, Riya. But, my feelings are dissolving in some times.
Riya: Hey, you should make the relationship stronger, Erisa.
Erisa: But Akira is right... so I let her go instead because... as long as she is happy, I am okay.
Riya: I know. She already told me about that. She cried in front of me while playing the song you sang to her before the break up. You could have a comeback to her.
Erisa: Comeback? But how?
Riya: Talk to her.
Erisa: Uh excuse me what the actual- seriously!?
Riya: Yes.
Erisa: But I am scared....
Riya: Scared? But she is not a monster! Duh.
Erisa: I mean I am scared because she might cry because of me...
Riya: Hey, she will try to be strong about her emotions, don't worry.

Erisa doesn't think that her emotions will be stronger at some times because she is already her ex and wondering what will be their topic.

Erisa: Well I don't think she will be stronger at some times. Speaking of talk, what topic will it be?
Riya: You may ask to her what was her reaction about the break up.

"Break-up reaction?"