Heaven Couldn't Wait For You «Zarry AU»

Epilogue

Zayn walked into the nursery, watching Harry sadly. He was sat leaning against the empty crib, the same place he'd been since they found out about the miscarriage. Looking around the room, Zayn began crying to himself.

He'd decorated the room after the doctor's visit, to surprise Harry when he got home from surgery. He'd chosen the lyrics to Beyonce's 'Heaven Couldn't Wait For You' and painted the name Harry had picked above it in fancy lettering, Adrian.

Harry had seen the room and sat right in front of the bed, crying. It'd been two weeks and Harry had barely left the room unless he had to.

"Babe, can you come eat, please? You haven't eaten a thing in days and I don't want you to get sick," Zayn said quietly, sniffling.

For the first time since they found out, Harry looked Zayn in the eyes. Then he spoke, also for the first time.

"I'm leaving, Zayn," Harry whispered, sighing when Zayn looked at him confused. "I'm gonna go back home with my mom and Gemma."

Zayn's eyes widened in realization, and he shook his head quickly. "No, baby, why? WHat's wrong, am I not being supportive enough? I'm sorry! I swear I'm trying, but it's hard. I don't wanna like, make you sad or anything, it's a hard thing to talk about."

"I know," Harry croaked, more tears falling. "And that's why I have to leave. You've done everything right, but I can't do this anymore. It hurts too much."

"What about us getting married? How long are you gonna be gone," Zayn asked quietly. His heart was breaking, and he knew it was about to be broken even more.

Harry sighed. "I'm not gonna come back." He slipped the ring off of his finger and handed it to Zayn. "We aren't gonna get married, and we're just gonna forget about everything in the past five years."

"This isn't fair, Harry! I'm hurting, too, ya know? I lost my baby the same way you lost yours, and I'm trying to be a good fiance to you, especially right now. I know you need me to help you through this, and I need you, too," Zayn said, but he knew he'd already lost him.

Harry looked down, taking a deep breath. "I know that, Zayn. And I know it isn't fair what I'm doing, but it also isn't fair for me to hate you for nothing. And that's what's happening. Everytime I look at you, hear you, think about you, or our baby, I hate you more and more. And that's not fair to you, because you haven't done anything wrong."

"Then why are you leaving me? If I haven't done anything wrong?"

"Because you shouldn't have to deal with me hating you for nothing. But losing the baby, I can't help it. I think about the fact that we were gonna be parents, then I think about the fact that it's gone now, and I hate you so much," Harry explained. "I love you, and I don't wanna do this, but I can't put either of us through this anymore."

Zayn shook his head, still trying to change Harry's mind. But he knew it was pointless. "I can deal with you hating me, I'll leave you alone. I'll stay in another room, but please don't leave me. I can't deal with that."

There was a beep outside, and Zayn finally started sobbing, knowing it was Anne and Gemma coming to get Harry already. Harry kissed Zayn's cheek, feeling terrible. But this was the right thing to do.

"I'm so sorry, Zayn. Don't cry, I'm not worth your tears."

He walked out of the nursery, and Zayn watched through the window as he walked out of the house and his life. He broke down, crumbling to the floor in a pathetic heap of nothing. In less than a month he'd lost everything that was anything to him, his baby and his boyfriend of five years turned fiance. There was nothing left for him, or of him.

Zayn just laid there crying.

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A/N: welp, idek why this idea was in my head, but here it is and now it's done and I'm sorry for any pain I caused you guys!!! Ily!