Clint and Nat and the rest of the Avengers

Chapter 7

Natasha's POV

After some minutes I left Pepper and went inside, Fury told me he would contact me by 7pm and it was 6:58. I went to my room and checked my phone.

Romanoff, the papers about the Red Room mission have been finished, KGB found his body on the apartment we were told he bought with his fake name, tell me if you are suspecting about anything, we have to believe that they will think of you when it comes to who killed him. If you think it's better just come back to our headquarters. Let me know about your decision so I can send someone to pick you up.

It seemed like a very good idea just to disappear, vanish. I didn't need to be here and see Clint and Laura. Yeah, I should probably start packing, I sent Nick a message letting him know that I would come back tonight. That's when someone knocks on my door.

"Come in"
Clint opens the door and stares at me, and then at what I had in my hands, my cellphone and my bags.
"What's going on?"
"Hmm... I have to leave, it's just something with Fury. It's just better if I go, for now I need to start relying on safe decisions"
"What do you mean? Is it about Ivan?"
"Of course it is about Ivan! Isn't all my life about him?" Okay, I shouldn't have said it in that way "I'm sorry Clint, it's just that everything is wrong now, I'm trying to make everything look easy but the truth is, it's not. I'm always like this"
"Heeey, hey it's fine. Come here" he opened his arms offering a hug.
He hugged me and I hugged him back.
"Thanks Clint, I don't know how you are so cool dealing with me, I'm not the easiest person"
"Well, everything is a little confused and messed up when it comes to us, how to deal with that? There's no right answer"
"I love you, you know that right?" I had to tell him, I was leaving.
"I know, I love you too. Be safe" I got out of his arms and looked him in the eyes
"Always"
He started to come closer to my face, his eyes on my lips and for the first time I couldn't react at all "Clint..."
He put his arms around my naked waist since I was still wearing my shorts and bikini.
"This is so fucked up Nat"
"I know, but it's how it is supposed to be. This doesn't mean I don't love you and care about you. This actually means I care about you a lot" 
He put his hand on my chin and gave me a peck on the lips.
"God I missed your lips"
I smiled at his statement, I missed our kisses too.
"I have to go now"
"Please, do not disappear Nat"
"I won't, I'll take my stuff out of Stark's guest room by tonight, I found a place in New Rochelle, small place, small and quiet, I have to lay low for a while"
"Can I go for a visit?"
"Ow, hmmm, that's depends, you know..."
"It's just gonna be a friend visiting a friend"
"Right! I know you Hawkeye. I know how things can turn out..."
And when I looked at him I saw his eyes, he had tears in his eyes "Clint"
"I thought it could be easier Nat. I really thought at first, but missing you is so exhausting, it has been for the past 12 months. I'm done missing you, but there you go again, leaving and acting like you will never see me again"
I came near him and looked at him with sadness and guilt in my eyes "I'm so sorry, I don't know how to fix this, I wanna do the right thing, but I don't know what's that, after all this time, I really don't know"
And he's kissing me. Once, twice, he's everywhere up my back and over my arms and suddenly he's kissing me harder, deeper, with a fervent urgent need I've never known before. Gosh he missed me, I missed him, even more than him. He had company at least, I had just casual sex and death, that was horrible compared to his domestic life.
He starts to try to take off my bikini when someone knocks the door. We both stop what we were doing and start to worry about the possibility that Laura may be the one who knocked
"It's me, Pepper, Phil came to pick you up. I didn't know you were leaving. Can we talk?"
I felt way more relaxed knowing that Pepper was the one who knocked the door
"Yes, hmmm, come in then"
She entered the room and I could see in her eyes that she already knew what happened here.
"I'm mm.. sorry to interrupt..."
"No, it's fine, Clint was just leaving"
"Yeah.."
I saw Clint trying to decide what to do, kiss me goodbye or get out of this room and don't give Pepper a reason to ask me more about our relationship. He chose to leave.
"You're leaving with Phil?"
"Duty calls Pepper, this sucks, and I feel so bad that I didn't tell Clint the whole story, he deserves better than me"
"What story?"
"Pepper, it's nothing personal, but I can't really say these kind of things in my area of work, it's complicated and mostly classified"
"So... what were you two doing here?"
"nothing"
"Nothing? I know you Natasha"
"It doesn't matter, we have to pretend nothing happened anyway"
I took a deep breath and put my hoodie on and my sneakers, not minding to take off my bikini
"I have to go Pepper, wish I could tell you more, I'll drop by the tower to take my things, I'll contact you by the end of the week"
"You are leaving the tower"
"It's safer. Take care of them, take care of Clint, and please don't let him come after me, I made the mistake of telling him where I was going"
"Okay Natasha, be safe"

LAURA'S POV
I've been talking with Jane for a while in the living room when I noticed Clint is nowhere to be found, I heard a car arriving and Tony stood up, one minute later he came back with Phil, the master spy that works with Clint.
"Guys this is Phil, he's here to pick our red Russian spy"
Natasha was leaving? That was odd, I didn't know she was going to be here, but I don't want to be mad at Clint, maybe he really thought she wasn't coming, he was having a good time and when I arrived he was talking with the boys far away from Natasha.
Pepper immediately said "I'll go get her"
It's not that I hate Natasha, it's just that she and Clint are too close, it is not wrong of me to pay more attention to that, I mean, Natasha is pretty, like very beautiful and she is a deadly shield spy for God's sake, I've been with Clint for a year and I hope the next step is for us to move in together, I just hope we are on the same page.
Some minutes later Clint comes with a blank face
"are you okay?"
"Yeah, fine."
I could tell he was angry on the inside, he looked at Phil "Coulson"
"Clint"
"Can we talk for a minute, while you wait for her?"
"Sure"

CLINT'S POV
Me and Phil went outside on the pool area "So what's up Barton?"
"How you doing Phil?"
"I'm good, a little tired, the usual"
"Do you know what's up with Natasha?"
"If you don't know it's not my place to tell."
"I care about her Phil"
"You love her dumbass"
"Please, if you think it's gonna get too dangerous please contact me"
"I will. You know, she's the Black Widow, she can take care of herself"
"That doesn't mean she doesn't need someone to help her"
"Help who?"
We both looked at the door, it was Natasha.
"Phil, I'm glad you are the one who came! It's been a while!"
They hugged each other
"I've missed you too. Now, shall we go?"
"Yeah"
Coulson went to the car with Natasha's bags, she was going right behind him when she turned back and walked close to me
"I promise you I'll find a way to contact you, you don't have to ask Coulson"
"It's just precaution"
She smiled at me and I felt a urge to kiss her goodbye, but we both looked at the window and saw Laura, I had to fix that later, I can't be with her if every time I think about cheating her, it's not right and fair with her.
"I love you, have a safe drive back to the Tower"
"I will"
She gave me the most loving smile and left.