Reconciling Love (A Bad Boy Love Story)

Epilogue

Months later –

I would never forget the day that I told Xavier the truth about his parents. Every where I would go, every time I would see him my heart would ache. His big eyes filled with sadness and his hair a mad mess.

He had changed.

We had changed.

Things had changed over the last 5 months.

Jessica has moved in with Theo after there trip back from Arizona and both are about to start there last year of high school. Both of them are happy and in love.

I haven’t been seeing much of Claudine. The last time I saw her was in front of her house, she was going with her mum on some business trip and wasn’t coming back for about 3-4 months.

This time she did speak to me. This time we sat down and talked for hours, we even started to text again and guess what? Were going to be sharing a college dorm when she’s back.

Claudine had lost a lot of weight and hadn’t been sleeping well. I didn’t blame her though; her father divorced her mother and married some other women from Mexico.

Over the months I had become closer to Xavier. Friendly close. Even though Gael had not been happy I stood against him, even if me and Xavier had dated for a while he was still my friend at the end of the day. I felt as if I owed to Xavier, after what I had done.

What Mahatma Ghandi says ‘The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong’ that is what I go by everyday, because in the end everyone makes mistakes and everyone deserves forgiveness.

Over the months Gael and myself had been helping Xavier in finding his birth parent, while he stayed at his parents house. Xavier and his adoptive parents had started to slowly talk again and reconcile their friendship with their son.

Months of searching we still didn’t find anything about Xavier’s birthparents, all we know is that they are alive and living.

Aunt Chelsea has been doing well too. She’s been in rehab for months now and is overcoming her drug addiction. She’s also been put in Juvie for a year.

Jessica has only seen her once after the ‘incident’ and that was behind bars in front of a couple officers, I didn’t blame her. Jessica is scared of seeing her mother after what had happened.

London and her group have been doing fine. I saw London the other day hooking up with some guy at the mall. She’s still on the same habits. Her, candy and Tiffany have moved in together and have chosen not to continue on and go to collage. No surprise there.  

Even with all the chaos that has happened, and is still happening in my life I still wake up with a smile. I wake up with a smile and thank god that I’m still alive and breathing and lets not forget my smile is also on my face because I wake up next to a sweet, amazing guy that loves me the way I love him.

Till this day I still wonder how I fell in love with the great Gael Kingston, man slut. I had never liked him and had only talked to him on a couple of occasions with that giving him a dry face and totally being a bitch to him. We were never friends. Acquaintance yes, never friends.

Now it’s all changed. Now I wake up next to him, I wake up to his kisses, to his touch.

Everything has changed.

This world has become a beautiful place; I wake up with no nightmares from the previous nights. I thank Gael for that.

A new year began and I soon found myself in collage, surrounded by my friends, new people and Gael. Gael had gone in for a bachelor of business and accounting course while I had gone in for a counseling course diploma.

Gael had thought it was funny I had gone for a counseling course, I thought it was normal. As a kid growing up with no parents and struggling through life I was scared of seeking help and telling people my story.

Now I tell people my story, I go to a counselor and talk about the problems that I did have and all the problems that I struggle and go through today.

Its weird how people change. How our mind changes, our bodies and the way we think. Everything changes as you grow up. You become a different, stronger person. You learn how to up hold responsibilities and do things you thought you never could do.

In the end, the world is going to keep spinning. People are going to wake up to go to work, school or even wake up to start new chapters of their lives and life is still gonna go on.

Dear lord

As I thank you for the gift of life, I also thank you for the gift of wonderful people I have met along this journey. Some of them inspire me, stretch me, change me, love me and encourage me. All of them helped me to realize how meaningful and beautiful life is. All of them stood by me in the worst time in my life and picked me up when I fell down. I love them so much. Bless them lord with good health, security, wealth, success, peace and joy.

Thank you lord for keeping me together when my world was falling apart.

 - Estelle.