my teacher (louis tomilsion love story)

A Letter To Mister Tomlinson

Dear MR tomlinson it's been a few weeks had gone by after date and I have been in a worm hole emotions towards us I needed to let it out , this was an English assignment to write a lot of feeling on a page  to someone special and put it in a time capsule to be open in 10 years time although I feel like what was said had to been said to you even though we not togther but the bracelet represented somthing I have never been so unsure what it means and so since you the only one who understands me I want to open up to you

Somtimes i knew I was tooo weak to love again I knew I would not be able to handle it that the minutes I felt the heartbreak I would have lost it that from that moment I knew it was downhill I'm addicted to the sadness to the heart break I'm addicted to making myself feel the sorrow pain I'm addicted to the thing that killing me on the inside I knew It took me long to grow from the addiction before I knew from the first heart break that it was my downfall again like a drug it keeps becoming more stronger the craving and the pain becomes a bigger dosage  like constantly cutting through my heart why do I love this pain so much is it the attention do I like it to make sure I still feel somthing, or is it the tears am I addicted to the feeling of them sliding down my face why do I like my shivers and silent screams for help when I know all I'm doing is hurting myself why don't I turn a deaf ear to things or switch the memories off why don't I forget everything and act like it never meant so much, why am I so sensitive I feel each word and eahc action and analyse the invisible situations and uncompleted words. What is this pain my dear love that we always develop we could be so great but this painful addition is greater why is the downfall of us gonna be us not anyone else but us why is this a sinful message from the beyond warning us to stop and move on or is the message of the soulesss people with broken hearts trying to steal our love what is this painful emotion always coming to us at the worse of times in form of people and situations dose this mean we aren't what we are cuz we care of the inhuman feelingz of the hoplesss people who feel unfulfilled with life the people who never met the light of happiness because of another sinful pain  or the people that laugh at me when I'm walking from my love from school and talk how they are horrible people showing their affection Freely verse their by the conner or is it thta jealousy in our heart of insecurities I have always have keep coming back and to the people that are much better then you and have all the same ways you feel upon the world but without this addition of pain instead the magnetic power of art pulling my love from me a skill I always strive to want to achieve I always want things but never had the will power to accomplish it well u use to but unfortunately that was taken away from me too what do I have left not a fur companion nor of a power of determination and a broken hidden away heart that healed on its own maybe u loved to early again  and should have lived more but then again the one before was never love at all oh but this painful addiction is gonna be the death of me as the only thing I have left is love but my love is masked by this pain it keeps coming back I fight and fight it off like a weed covering the plan slowly killing the one it around  am I slowly winning the battle with the addiction  of pain how dose one let go of this game next year is to late to cut it all free as I'm fallen deep for this love me cant see pass it is there life pass this love we have I hardly think so then next year is the end of me is it really so it might be too late as I knew I wasn't ready for this fight of love again am I turning into one of those souless people what comes next after this how dose one fight this battle and win the war of love. To stop the pain and live the love how to make everything vanish without the medicine of amnesia but for you I'd fine. A cure but it's taking too long to become me again as the pain grows faster then I can figure it out one moment happy and the next pain it alot even for a sinful soul who has hope

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Author note

Hope you all enjoyed this part after so long lol