[Starvation] Anorexic! Depressed! Patryk x Paul

It's not real.

Paul's POV:

      Pat told me EVERYTHING about his nightmare. I hug him gently but tightly. "I would never do that. Ever." I reassure him. "Pr-Promise?" He asked. I nod in response. "Promise." Patryk smiles a little bit and hugs me back. "I love you.." I say. "I love you too..." My tol boyfriend replies.

~ Timeskip brought to you by my loneliness ~

Patryk's POV:

I was in the guest room. Well, my room. Thoughts clouded my mind.

Crybaby.

Whore.

Dumbass.

Stupid.

It's not real you idiot.

It's not real.

It's not real.

It's not real.

It's not real.

It's not real.

It's not real.

    I grasp my head and dig my nails into my skin. It wasn't real. It obviously was a dream. Why am I such an idiot?! Tears welled up in my eyes. I don't deserve Paul.. I don't deserve anybody! I angrily wiped my tears away from my eyes. I hate existing. Hate it. I crawled onto the bed and wrapped myself in a few blankets. More thoughts entered my head.

How can Paul even love me?

I've never been good enough for him.

He hates me!

A different voice, entered my head.

Of course he hates you. It's obvious. Paul just started to date you because he wants to gain your trust and love, then break you at the end. You're just for his entertainment. You fat ugly imbecile!

The voice laughed mockingly. It was right. I am a fat ugly imbecile. I don't want to be fat.. I won't eat.

I.

Won't.

Eat.

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A/N:
Hi everyone! Thanks for reading! Sorry this took a bit to get out. I started writing on the 14th of June but a LOT of shit was happening. I was too stressed, sad, angry and yeaaah. Woohoo for me. Expect more chapters though! Yay!!