Finding Myself I ▽

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Hi,

nice to meet you!

My name's broken.

Too outspoken.

But words still don't pass my lips.

I'm average, above, and below.

I like to think I know lots of things and in doing so I also know that I don't, in fact, know lots of things.

I'm constantly lost with no intention of being fully found.

I feel numb a lot.

Like ice, but not.

I can feel people's emotions.

And most of the time they are more clear to me than my own.

I like to tear myself down.

And when I try to pick myself up my mind refuses.

I want love, but I feel like I don't deserve it.

I want to try, but I can't.

And I know I could if I did really try.

But my depression only holds back so much.

I'm in control of my body, soul, and mind.

But I'm really not.

And I'm trying to show that part of me who's the alpha.

I am a dominant person.

But my brain likes to force a dominant person into a submissive personality until suddenly I don't know who I am anymore.

But it's always been apart of me.

So I guess I never really knew who I was.

Or who I am.

Or who I am going to be.

But I'm still going to introduce you to myself as if I do know.

So, hi, nice to meet you! My name's broken.
W h a t' s y o u r s?

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