RANTING TIME

Crushes

Crushes oh my god!

Crushes!

Crushes are seriously the death of me.

I remember that loooong period that I wouldn't have a crush on anyone because they would never be as attractive as band members. But then my brain was like 'Bruh it's not gonna happen.' So I had to settle for the average male species.

So there's this guy that sits next to me in English class and me being the shy person I am never talked to him for like 5 weeks. Then one day I was really hyper and couldn't stop talking to him and I guess he actually found me cool. So then he asked for my kik. My kik.

This doesn't just happen to me. Like this is a huge deal. Especially because he's popular.

So like that night we were texting until midnight and he was like giving subtle hints about what guys find attractive and that I had those qualities so I'm like "Ha uhhhh are you saying I'm attractive??' I didn't actually ask him that though.

And he's in wrestling the class before English so he's really hot and sweaty and drenches himself in Axe just so I won't think he smells bad.

BUT the thing is our room is super cold, and let's get real he's a guy, so he sits with his legs open. But he opens them so wide and he scoots closer to me so our legs will touch. Then on Fridays we have to read so it was a really chill atmosphere and we just kept scooting closer and closer to each other so they wouldn't just touch but they would actually cross. AND HIS HAND WAS RESTING ON HIS LEG HALF OPEN SO I THINK HE WANTED ME TO HOLD HIS HAND BUT I'M LIKE NAHHHH HE'S JUST BEING COMFORTABLE.

Somewhere in the middle of class he left to get some water and the guy that was sitting across from us was like "So you and him, huh?" And I PAAAANNNICKKKEDDD. I'm like ha what? No. I don't know what you're talking about. Haha whaaaaaattttt? And he's like I saw your legs crossing and you getting closer so. And it was freaking terrifying.

Like when he came back he tried to sit farther away but I guess he really didn't want to so he scooted back to me again.

Then like that night we were kinda texting but our connections were screwing up so we couldn't really. BUT THEN LIKE HE LOGGED OUT OF KIK OR SOMETHING AND WOULDN'T TEXT ME ALL WEEKEND LIKE BRUH YOU DON'T JUST INTERTWINE LEGS WITH ME AND CALL ME ATTRACTIVE AND TEASE ME THEN NOT TEXT ME. And I keep like having dreams about him and shit and last night I had a dream that he toootally dissed me and was like I like you but I'm popular and you're not sooo yeah. LIKE I WAS ABOUT TO ASK THIS PUNK OUT TO GO TO A HAUNTED HOUSE WITH ME BUT NOW I'M HELLA SCARED.

Lol comment if you've ever had a problem like this so we can be hella scared together!