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Folded Letter for My Mother

Mama,

The reason why I'm here in this world. This is my message for you. So here it goes:

You. The mother that always nags. But can fight with others just for your children (us).

You. The very strict mother. But it just to right and to straighten our path.

You. The mother that always commands us. But it just to teach us on how we're going to do if the times comes that we need to stand with our own. So that we can't be bullied someday.

You. The mother that hurts us if we did something wrong. But it just to teach us on how to be strong for all the challenges we may encountered alone someday.

You. The mother that very closefisted sometimes. But it just to teach us on how to keep or use money wisely. Also to show us how to work hard just to give our needs.

You. The mother that always entering our lives and meddling our decisions. But just because you loves us that much and you want the best for us. That we can't be in the wrong place and to be a nobody.

Sometimes, I'm asking myself, "Why you? Why you are my mother?". When we argued, when you nags at me, when you always embarrassed me infront of others and when you hurt me physically and emotionally, I'm asking myself why. "Why you? Why not others?". That I hope it's not you, that I wish it's just others. But you know what worst? It also came to a point that I don't want you to be my mother, that I want to be away from you.

You always entering my life, contradict my wants, contrasting my decisions and discouraging my plans. In short, you always want to rule me.

Most of the time, I gets angry when you made me feel that I am the worthless daughter you ever had.

But in the end, you let me realize how important all your actions towards us, on how to teach us those things that we could possibly use in the future. Now I know it already.

I don't know how you ease all the pains if we made mistakes. How you manage all the hardworks just to make us live and to support our needs. You didn't give yourself a rest until your body surrendered itself. Because now, I don't think I can do what you do to us when we're child. So hard just even to think of it.

And now, I finally realize how lucky I am to have you as our mother. How lucky we are because you're always beside us through our ups and downs. I also realize how fool I am to complain and to regret that you are our parent. Because you're one of a kind.

Lord really loves me because He gave me the most powerful, kind and strong woman like you. I'm thankful that He gave you to us. You're not perfect because no one does. But it doesn't matter because I know that you will never get tired on understanding us even if we grow old. I know that you will always be our companion everytime that we need one.

You will stand as our protector if ever the world will be against us. You will be our shield to the pains that will come over us and will be our wall that we can lean on in times of problems. You will always be there for us forever.

You're not stopping loving us. Always at our back and never leaves us. Always there to care and to support us. Most especially you're here to love us.

I, your daughter saying how really sorry I am for all the mistakes I've done so many times that cause you hurt so much. I'm sorry for all those bad words and bad things I've made against your will, that makes you cry night and day. I'm really sorry because I can't be the daughter you want  me to be now. And I'm sorry because I always disappoints you. But I'll make sure and I will do my very best to make you proud someday.

Inspite of all the burdens, headache, pains, stress and problems I've caused you, I know that you're always there for me.

And now that I have my own family and a mother too, I hope you will still here to help and to guide me in my journey. And I know that you always will.

Like you, I won't get tired on loving you. I know I never showed it because I'm not that kind of person. But deep in my heart, I wish I can show how much I cared and loved you in a way that I can.

Again, I'm really really sorry for all the heartaches I've made.

I want to grow old with you. I want you to see me happy and successful in my life. I want you to be there to celebrate it with us. I want to make you proud.

Ma, our age can only chane but my love for you will be forever stays the same. Always remember that, okay? I love you, ma! I hope you knew that.

I love for more that times that I can't count.

Maria Joanna Ramos