Have you ever just felt so completely shit about yourself? Like you've messed up and there's no way to fix it? Have you ever just felt that you're nothing? An awful person? Someone who doesn't deserved to be loved, talked to, cared about? This world is a screwed up place, but at this point I'm more screwed up than the world. I hate it when people try to tell me I'm not a bad person, or that everything is okay, because I'm am and it's not gonna be okay. I seriously hate myself beyond words right now. How do people deal with this daily? I couldn't do it. I can hardly do it right now. So many better things I could be doing with my life, and here I am; doing things that make me loathe myself.
Pretty screwed up world.
