Dear diary,
Today was....different. I tried to escape again. Father beat me again. It has become normal. I didn't cry today. I screamed,told him to talk,demanded to know the truth. I asked him why doesn't he kill me instead of treating me like shit and keeping me locked up like this. I expected him to leave or hit me again,but today,he just cried and hugged me. I was shocked. I still am. But it felt good,after so many days. I had been missing the feeling of being loved,of comfort,anything. I felt sad watching him cry. Why was he crying? I asked him things but he left without saying anything,again. I'm confused. Has he gone mad? Am I mad? I've been hearing a beautiful tune nowadays. I hear it when my headache starts. I love the tune very much,it's so beautiful. I wait for it everyday. It comes from the forest.
I miss mom and Josh. I don't wanna stay here anymore. I want back my perfect life,our perfect life. When we were happy. When I was happy. Maybe they still are happy, without me. Maybe I am the outcast. Trapped. But what did I do? I can feel it. I'm going crazy. I'm going crazy. I'm going crazy. I wish someone would help me. I can't spend my whole life here. I'd rather die. Ow! My headache...my head feels like exploding. I can hear the beautiful tune...so beautiful. I must go to the forest.
-Emily
