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I spend the whole week inside my house. I'm grounded after the incident of course. Dad confiscated my car keys and credit cards. Like I even have a car to drive in the first place, nasira na ito dahil sa incident na iyon. It's my fault though so I accept the punishment. I reached my Dad's limit. Buong linggo nang pagpapahinga ay nasa loob lang ako nitong bahay na malaki na ito kung saan ako lang ang mag isa. Well, I'm used to it anyway.
I got distracted when my phone suddenly ring. I lazily get it at napairap ng makita na si Dad ang tumatawag.
"Hello." I said.
"Pack all of your things Jamlyn. I will send a driver there tomorrow morning with your files for your new school. You will leave tomorrow and that's final. I hope you'll try to live a quite life this time or else, wala na akong anak na babae." He said at biglaan nalang akong binabaan ng phone.
How cold.
And being the good daughter that I am, I started packing my things. Nag labas nadin ako ng iilang boxes dahil hindi sapat na sa maleta lang lahat ng mga gamit ko. Dad sent me some of the informations about my new school and house that I will be staying. He said that I'll be staying in a villa he owned and I will be living with someone, iyon daw ang mag babantay sa akin.
On the next morning, maaga nga na dumating ang driver! Shit! Nagising nalang ako sa sunod sunod na tawag sa phone ko and when I checked the clock, its frigging 5 o'clock in the morning! What the hell!
"Yes dad?" Alerto ko na sabi. I'm preparing myself for another waves of insults kaya naman ay huminga na ako ng malalim at hindi ako nag kamali.
My Dad never failed to remind me how a disappointment I am and how it is too much for him to have me as his child. Gosh, hindi ata nakukumpleto ang araw niya nang hindi ako naiinsulto.
"Yes Dad. I'll prepare na." Simple ko na sabi pagkatapos ng nakakalunod na sermon at insulto.
"Better be woman, ng may magawa ka naman na tama!" He hissed then cut off the call.
Naligo na ako at nag bihis ng simpleng mom jeans at loose shirt. I have no time to eat my breakfast or even comb my hair and apply some make up kaya dumiretso na ako sa labas ng bahay.
"Manong, pano po yung gamit ko?" I asked the old driver.
"May pupunta po dito at kukuha niyan Ma'am." He said kaya naman ay tumango nalang ako sa kaniya at pumasok na sa loob ng sasakyan.
The estimated hours of travel is twelve hours according to manong driver. Mukhang ipinatapon nga ako ni Dad sa malayong lugar. I can actually ride an airplane pero mas pinili ko ang land trip dahil mas gusto ko ang ganito.
Nang umandar na ang sasakyan ay hinayaan ko na ang sarili ko na malunod sa pag iisip kung ano ang buhay na nag hihintay sa akin doon sa probinsya na iyon.
Yes, I hate the fact that I'm leaving my life here. I am used to going on clubs every night and hanging out with my circle of friends and I know that I will have to leave that life once I arrived that place. Wala akong ibang maramdaman kung hindi ang tampo. Those things are my only escape. I spend my remaining hours at night in the club to avoid myself from feeling lonely inside that big house. I have no one to talk to there, I feel alone there, and the thing is, pag nag iisa ako ay kung ano ano ang naiisip ko at ayaw ko ng ganoon.
I'm not even trying to be rebellious just to get my father's attention because I know it's useless, insulto lang ako kahahantungan ko. Ayaw ko na mag tanim ng sama ng loob sa kahit na sino so to avoid that, I express all of my feelings by being wild, I know, I don't make sense.
