So maybe I'm a little different

Let's take a trip down memory lane

When I was 4 years old,I was practically living in a mansion. You could say my life was picture perfect. I had the perfect family with an older brother to protect me and two happily married parents.

Since I was the youngest child my parents tended to be a little bit over protective, and when I say a little I mean I was literally not allowed out of their sight.

Why?

Well the answer is simple. My mom had lost her very first child and she most definitely did not want to go through that again. So I was the lucky one to be watched like a hawk by my parents. Thanks alot sis that I never knew, I couldn't be more grateful - note the sarcasm.

Anyway,since we were practically loaded and I had the pleasure of my parents full time watch my mom decided to home school me, but no my mom was worried I would have no social life so she literally opened a small school of about 20 children in my house , and hired a teacher.

Trust me, I'm not complaining.

Our so called kindergarten 'naptime' I spent in my own room, and let's just say that the reason I still can't sleep to the age of sixteen is most probably due to the fact that I was too cool for my own little home school and I decided to play with my toys instead of sleep since I was not watched by the teacher the whole time as the other little buggers in my home school had to sleep in class unlike me.

Yes, you can call me a sneaky little sweatheart.

Anyway, back to the point - if you can't already tell, I like rambling.

In this school I met two of my best friends. Both of them were my older brother's two best friend's younger brothers.

So for the next 2 years we were inseparable and became the best of friends.

Then everything seemed to go downhill...

My parents started fighting.

I had to spend nights at my cousins house.

I barely saw my dad anymore.

And before I knew it my parents were divorced and me, my mom and my brother were living in a stuffy apartment with barely any money for food as my mom was previously a stay at home mom.

Life was difficult.

Since I no longer had the home school and we were severely struggling with money, most days I would spend with my cousins and family gatherings became my only happy place.

Even though spending time with my family was great I still felt like I had nobody to talk to since I was the only girl between my 11 other cousins who were all guys. Still I wasn't complaining because I was completely content with playing cops and robbers and all sorts of shooting games with them in their massive back garden on our weekend get togethers.

When I turned six I started going to school and I made a new guy best friend who I had the biggest crush on but that friendship only lasted the year as he left to Australia.

In first grade I started becoming great friends with a redheaded boy who lived in my complex only a few houses down my street and he happened to be our grades bully. Nobody understood why I chose to spend my time with him but I wasn't really one to judge him and I thought him and his friends were great company.

Though he left the next year and I don't really know where he is now.

The year after we moved to a new house which wasn't much bigger but we didn't have nearly as much money problems.

Our next door neighbour was a boy and somehow me and him became great friends.We often went over to each others houses and we had an awesome time together. Little did I know his mom attempted to commit suicide and before I knew it he moved out to go live with his dad, his mom still lived there though.

In fourth grade I actually started befriending girls instead of just guys, I was best friends with a group of 6 girls and we were considered the populars in our grade. There were many little fights in our little group but I was sort of the peace maker and I never participated in any of the bickers.

I was extremely happy when I found out one of those girls lived close by , we constantly went between each others houses doing lots of fun stuff like egging peoples houses and painting with red in an abandoned building to make it look creepy. It was one of the best times of my life.

In fifth grade this group of friends thought it would be great to set me up with my old childhood friend ( the one from my home school ) because he liked me, but I thought this was a horrible idea because I liked his best friend and this was the time I was heading into my awkward stage with guys. So as soon as he came to ask me to be his girlfriend I straight out told him to go away - I know I'm so very nice.

At the end of fifth grade my group of friends broke apart and literally became worst enemies, everybody completely hated each other, except me ofcourse. I was still friends with all of them just not so close anymore.

In my freshman year I made quite a few bad decisions.

I finally got over a huge crush I had on this guy and then I was told by my best friend that one of the popular guys likes me. I didn't want to believe her because in my eyes I was ugly and I just didn't undertsand how someone like him could possibly like me.

At my best friends birthday party he asked me out and I was a complete nervous wreck and I made it completely awkward because of my complete lack of skills in the guy department but I ended up saying yes out of pity for the poor guy.

What happened next totally came unexpected. The guy my best friend had the biggest crush on, who we thought liked her back, told me that he liked me. I completely ignored him and told him to get over it because I wasn't going to do that to my best friend and I was currently in a relationship.

A few weeks later I felt horrible because I realised I was in a relationship for no reason. I didn't like the guy, I felt really awkward when we hugged and this was high school it's not like it was going to last. So I did what I had to do and broke up with him.

That, so far, was my first and last relationship, and right now I'm more awkward than an awkward turtle when it comes to guys. I can barely talk to them even in a friends kind of way and lets just say I completely die inside when they approach me even just to have a normal friendly conversation.

I am Amberlee Destiny Ashbrook the complete guy repeller.

I am Amberlee Destiny Ashbrook the awkward sixteen year old girl.

I am Amberlee Destiny Ashbrook and that was my story up until now...

But this was only the start.