"On the left side"

Chapter 2 "Severe Confusions"

What a puzzling moment! The woman never took her green eyes off me. She was smilling so fairly at me i couldnt even take a chance to look at the ground. I wouldn't wanna look rude in front of her. My whole body felt cold as i was getting closer and closer towards her. And my worst natural thing, Instant sweaty palms. A very annoying-embarassing thing. The reason why i never wanted anyone shaking or even touching my hands. It's irritating and i hated everything about it. But then again, I just have to live with it. I mean, That's just me.

Now lets go back to the real happening; I can't stop wondering what she really wanted from me. I can't imagine such a beautiful stranger would come here as if like secretly at school for my cause. She even called me by my whole name. It's all more like a wierd dream to me. I then stopped at a distance that was merely enough for the two of us to talk. She kept smilling at me while she was staring at my whole body from head to toe. It was absoloutely so retarded. Then at last, She settled down and look up to see my face. Actually she never stopped smilling at me. I was standing right infront of her pretending that everything is normal. But it's totally not. I mean,Who knows, she might just borrow some money from my parents, Or might just ask my mother's celphone number for their bussiness matter, Or with hope, it may be something else not pathetic but cool. . . My expectation's on again combined with my freaky imaginations. Well, anyways, I know in the end it's ultimately disapointing so i surely know it's gotta stop. I know that you know what i totally feel right now. Curious, That's what i am feeling right now and officially eagered to know what she really wanted from me. So, With my right, I had to couragely ask.

"May i help you?"

The woman held her bag tight and looked at me in the eye. It seems like she's already used in talking to people she doesn't even know they exist.

"I'm miss Leighton , An agent at the Department Of sociality and behavior adjustment and inspite all this i'm a good friend of your mother's. I've heard you have such an interest in Music, Am i right, My Dear?" She consiquently asked.

That moment then, I was now starting to feel alright by the fact that i've heard that she's a good friend of my mother. Plus she even called me "Dear" which made me feel lighter than ever. I moved a little step forward trying to give her a smile that will somehow enlighten her too. With that i'll have the opportunity to answer her question.

"Yes, I certainly love music. It makes me imagine everthing. . ."

"So does that mean you wanna learn to play good music?"

"I guess so. . " I replied with such a passionate feeling that she might give me an opportunity

This time she laughed

"You think so? I don't see that as a yes, Not even a no"

I was confused. I felt like saying "no" that time because all i could think about was all the negative things that will happen. You know like she expecting me to be the best than what she could expect from me but instead of all that i'll just fail and lose all her trust in me, I mean i don't like that to happen. I'm afraid of what might happen. But on the left side, my heart's really,really telling me to say "yes", Yes! because of my expectations, My life, my dream. I want to show everyone what i have even though i'm like this, I'll do my best to not care about what'll others think. something like that. .

"It's not about what will happen in the future, It's as long as you grab the opportunity to fullfill your evermost wanted dream"

"Yes. I really want to" I replied calmly

She suddenly stopped smilling and focused on my behaviour. She stared at me seriously with her arms crossed.

"You sure you really want to?"