LIFE OF CHARLIE B

I WANT TO DIE, MY TIME HAS COME MY FAIT SAY GOODBYE

(I feel like shit, I wanted to die, I wanted to feel love not pain, I feel but no love, I feel but pain ,I don't want to live in a world filled with hate towards those unfortunate like me, growing up was hard, I was bullied as a child also a teenager for being, Gay. Also for being adopted witch was hard growing up, at the end of year 11 I had a nervous breakdown witch lead into suicidal thoughts like should I take an overdose or just self harm .

But there's light at the end of the tunnel, it's just wether I accept that or just carry on with Depprestion I suffer from. or just carrying on with accepting that I will just get better because I just feel that if I accept that if I do or just wait for the next nervous breakdown witch will lead into actually killing myself witch is what it's actually doing still too this day witch is 2014/10/06.

Waking up every morning knowing that it's the same day every day waking up, putting a fake smile on and telling everyone I'm fine when I need that one hello or hug or smile but I never get that anymore I'm 18 and going to stay that way my birthday is coming up and I'm shortly leaving after that I've decided my time has come I've seen the sign I've read my Fait and my time on earth is up.

But it's time to say goodbye to all that loves me/hates me/ and wants me dead

Lots of love

Charles Nathan Bennington

C.N.Bennington