Sickening

Mask-7-

Do you want to know what my mask is?

Or maybe the reason for that mask.

I put on this mask because I'm selfish, greedy and even though I'm trying to overcome them, I still feed up my confidence.

Just so that I can face you, that's it. Just so that my house of cards doesn't collapse.

I crave compliments, who doesn't like them?

When I hear: "You are pretty, nice and smart." I become happy.

I know you might not even mean it but at least for a few seconds I may reach limbo.

Just for once, I may be happy.

Walls and walls, one after the other, I just build them higher and stronger. No one has seen all of me.

People get stuck in between my walls depending on how much I trust them.

Some will never get through the first one.

In all honesty,

How do you think I've gotten this far by myself?

It all started long before I met you. When I didn't know of your existence.

When I was 8 or so.

How will you ever understand?

Stop lying to my face!