Sickening

Hiatus-10-

I needed a break from you, I needed a hiatus.

Because you might have never noticed but, I was pressured too.

I would and still ask myself, why did this all happen?

How did it start?

Who should I blame?

But that question lead me to one of the darkest moments in my life.

Me.

I had to blame myself for everything.

I wasn't good enough, I was playing the victim and I was the guilty one.

That is what I thought.

A moment of darkness, isolation and low self-esteem.

For the first time in my life I was lost.

Lost in an abyss of trust. Lost trust.

In an abyss of secrets.

I despise secrets so much. I despise lies. They broke me and torn me apart.

They grabbed my limbs and ripped them out. One by one.

But my heart was not torn.
Torture was worse than death.

Why couldn't we just go back to that innocence we now lack?

I just want to be,

An open book.