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When I wake

When I wake the lights are bright, I can see the pale white sky through the windows. I'm still in Beau's house, my head feels a lot better. I might be able to go home now.

I'm deep in thought when I see him walk back through the door. 

"Oh my god, I was worrying that you were never going to wake up. It's only been a week but it felt like forever. I brought some food, well stole it because there was no one to pay" He pauses for a moment. "I'm sorry i'm rambling, I just haven't talked to anyone in a while"

"That's ok" I understand his need to talk, last year both of my parents went on a business trip during the summer and Leon went on vacation; I didn't have anyone to talk to. "Do you think I can go for a walk"

"Umm, yeah sure. Do you mind if I come with you" He looks desperate, I can tell that he wants to talk about something to someone, anyone. I could also tell that he was slightly agitated; the only  thing I learnt from being the sheriff's assistant, is how to read someone perfectly. Something happened sometime while I was out, but i'm not sure what. 

"Not at all, you want to talk right?" It just hit me, we had only talked once before this but it feels like we've known each other forever.

"Yeah, I do" He seems very relieved that I said yes, I kind of feel bad. If what he said last time is true-that everyone is gone-then he must have been very lonely.

"Do you have any clothes I can borrow" I ask knowing that if I walk around in these clothes it's just going to remind me of that man.

"Um yes, i'll leave some in the bathroom for you" He says as he walks towards the door. I notice that he's limping, I didn't notice that before but I guess I wasn't looking.

"Thank you" I get up and make my way to what looks like the bathroom, the clothes are on the counter, just like he said. I take a look at the clothes he left, it is a pair of black shorts and a big black shirt. Before I change I go to the bathroom, and damn, of course I had to have gotten my period in a strangers house. It also seems like he lives alone, so he isn't going to have anything for me. I make a mental note to go to the store while were walking, and pray I don't ruin his clothes. I throw my clothes in the trash and leave the bathroom.

I head downstairs, he's putting his shoes on by the door. "Hey" He says not looking up.

"Hey, so um can we stop by the um.. store while were walking" I ask, praying he doesn't ask me why, but he does.

"Why" 

"I just need to grab something" I say looking at my feet, this is embarrassing.

"Ohhh, ok yeah I get it. You don't have to be embarrassed, you could have just asked" He looks sincere, even Leon, my best friend, used to look disgusted when I told him.

"Thank you"

"Of course" He says tossing me a pair of shoes. I sit down and put the shoes on. "so" he says standing up, "We are going to take a walk around the lake and then up the hill to the store"

"Wait, what lake" I ask hoping he says Forest lake.

"Sally waters" He says opening the door.

"Wait, how far away from my house are we" I ask.

"Well I don't know where your house is" He says confused.

"It's on the street where you found me" I say starting to get worried.

"Oh, I didn't know that was your house" He stops to think. "Maybe like 20 miles away"

"What" I start to panic, I have never been that far away from home before and I know it's irrational, but I have panic attacks over the smallest things so this is something that hits hard.