Be my sunshine

6: i think i must confess, im starting to unwind, i been trippin' over you

(If you're wondering what the song was that Alex was singing, it was Willow Tree March by the Paper Kites :) I linked it to this chapter if you guys would want to listen to it)

After putting my cup away and rinsing it out I made my way to Alex's room, she had changed pretty quickly into jeans and a hoodie, putting a beanie on her head as she packed a bag and grabbed what looked like a guitar case.

"I assume I should be leaving soon, could you maybe drive me home?" I asked, scratching the back of my neck, in all seriousness I didn't want to leave but it looked like she had plans to go somewhere.

"Right now?" She said and gave me a slight pout, slinging the bag on her back,"I was kind of hoping you'd stay a bit longer, I wanted to take you somewhere."

Well then, I wasn't about to pass that up, plus, I didn't have anything to do.

"Well I mean I guess I could stay, if you Insist." I smirked, Alex poked her tongue out and then grabbed one of her hoodies out of her closet,
She bit her lip and turned to me, looking me up and down.

"Here, take this. It's chilly outside." She tossed me the hoodie, the scent of her filled my nose and without complaining I slipped it on.

It was warm and smelled just like her, she had a comforting smell that perfectly matched her presence, warm and cozy.

"Thanks" I gave a shy smile, "before we go, I'm gonna go to the bathroom." I said and waddled off.

I shut the bathroom door and looked at myself in the mirror, I wiped off my smudged eyeliner and washed my face, and then pulled my hair up into a pony tail and straightened out my bangs, I honestly didn't look half bad, I looked comfy.

Alex had been waiting for me at the front door and a smile spread on her face as she looked at me,"damn girl, lookin fine as hell." she said and snapped her fingers.

I went wide eyed and slapped her shoulder, "stop it oh my god.." I laughed and shook my head.

For awhile we walked until we were out of her neighborhood, and then we took a sharp right and walked down the sidewalk until we ended up in a park.

Alex lead the way and instead of watching the trees and the birds I watched her, every gust of wind, her golden hair followed along, almost just like the trees, never once skipping a beat as her hair swayed.

"When I moved here, I wanted to explore, so once we moved everything into our house, I came outside and walked until the sun started to set." Alex explained.

" you know, Florida was mostly beach, I was grown up on the beach and although I was sad to leave I was excited, I've never seen snow before and I've also never been able to have a place to go too outside, like a forest or something, Being that Florida is so open. At least where I lived."

At this point we were in the woods, following a thin rocky path, I grabbed her guitar from her and put it on my back so she didn't have so much to carry and shyly took her hand, I didn't want to get lost of course.

Alex smiled and turned to me, she turned back and continued her story, " I explored everywhere and eventually, I found this little forest, it's absolutely beautiful." She let out a sigh, we stopped and were met with a small patch of grass big enough to have a picnic or something. tress surrounded us, but were scarce enough to where we could easily see through them.

She set her bag down and pulled a blanket out, laying it on the grass and plopping down, pulling me down with her. I gave her, her guitar and smiled.

"I feel that our society today is so heavily dependent on our phone and technology, we kind of..lose touch with where we derived from. I mean god look at this." She said and motioned to the beautiful trees.

"We look for happiness our entire lives through money which eventually makes us even more unhappy when, the happiness is right in front of us. I mean I don't know about you but going outside has always made me feel a lot better." She said and looked at me once she'd pulled out her guitar.

Never once had I ever met someone like her, not only was she humble, she was mindful of the true beauty of everything, the true beauty of nature especially.

I nodded softly and lay on my back, looking up at the sky as birds crossed each other from tree to tree, "you're exactly right..I couldn't have said it any better." I said.

I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply, starting to ease my muscles as I heard her tune her guitar, and soon she was playing.

She began to strum softly, the forest seemed to consume the sound that came from her as birds chirped along and the breeze shook the leaves.

When she sang, it was amazing, her voice was low and gravely, but she could also hit those certain high notes if she needed to, and made them sound like absolute perfection.

"And you weaken your love
And you hold it above your head
Success is a song of the heart, not a song of your bed"

I turned to watch her as she kept her eyes down on her guitar and then looked up at me, I bit my lip and in that moment, like the night before we just stared at eachother while she sang.

She came to a stop and set her guitar down, moving everything aside without breaking eye contact as she took up the empty space next to me, i nuzzled my nose against hers and smiled softly to myself.

We didn't need words, we didn't need to talk, the silence in itself was enough to say how we felt, how we were feeling.

She pulled me closer and I nuzzled into her neck, my hand resting on her chest as we cuddled.

Everything kind of just disappeared, my sadness , my worry, even my own family disappeared. My mom, the sadness of the death of my dad, the worry of my little brother, Owen. Everything.

For once I was content with living, I new the beauty of life and it was this, I was nothing but happy, and in that moment nothing could change that.