Secrets kill, so do razors

I forgot what chapter im on

~~~ nikoles POV~~~
This is suppose to be a secret spot...he looks so sad, so lonely...I could just be quiet and leave but...
"Hey."
"Nikole? You scared the shit out of me!!"
"You aren't suppose to be here....how did you even find this place alex?"
"Probably the same way you did."
"Smart ass" and we just laughed. "Soo what are you reading?"
"Looking for Alaska."
"Ohh my gosh! I love that book. And I totally relate to Alaska. I mean the way she looks at life. Sorry I probably shouldn't be rambling on like this."
~~~Alex's POV~~~
Of all people, I'm glad it's her. I mean despite the fact she's a bitch, she's the coolest person I know in this place. Why did she stop talking about looking for Alaska? She looks so much different when she's actually talking to me.

I hate when people get so excited about Something but then feel as if they are stupid, it's so cute to me. She looks sad now. There's something in her eyes.
"You don't have to stop."
"Yeah I do. It's stupid. Just read your book dildo"
"Well what are you reading?"
"Paper towns. Yeah I know it's cliche but I love John Greene. Now leave me alone."
What the fuck? She's such a whore. I'm actually trying to talk to her. I'm done with this. As I start walking home, I turn and she her crying. I don't know if I should try to Comfort her or not. Well she saw me today on the hallway and didn't give a fuck so I don't either. *phone buzzes*" where the hell are you"
I see the text from my mom.. Great. *phone buzzes* you know your father is drunk and you took advantage of that by asking to go out, DIDNT YOU?!"
"No mam. I didn't know he was drunk. I had bad service and could hardly hear him. Headed home now. Sorry."

When I got home, there they were...