Amorea P.O.V Lying awake on the bed at 3 am no, I'm not using my phone or watching Netflix. The only thing I am doing is searching but not on Google or any website but in my whole life i am searching for just one good reason to be alive for, to look forward to, to be love for, like a legacy or a purpose but like always I am left with no reason to live for and yet I'm not dead either. I only have a family for whom I'm a curse, a curse who they have to share with their lineage, I am the least love among my sisters and one brother, they are all elder siblings and now it's time to tell myself the biggest lie and untold truth The first child will always get the most love because the parents desire of having a babies are complete by the first born no matter what they do, they will always be loved.
The second child born with the anger of being least loved but is it true? The parents thinks the same way and love them to not get into bad influence or believing in it's their fault how the children turns out to be and they start loving them equally.
The third child I am not sure what happens to third child but in my house it's the only boy so without a question he's loved more than anyone
As for me the fourth child love is never available what's available is the sacrifices that will never be spoken of again, the youngest child
will never be loved by their parents. They are least loved. I'm no good for anything or at nothing and maybe never will be while thinking this my eyes become watery and a small drop of my tear falls down my cheek I close my eyes and another falls down but that didn't stop me from thinking. I do have one thing and it's called faith, I may not have faith in myself but in God. God makes a purpose for everyone's life i believe in him I always did and always will. Suicide is one thing he has strictly put restrictions on and if the god is keeping me alive there might be a reason with that my mind got lost in dizziness and sleep finally come over my body and took my soul to somewhere it can rest for a while.
"Amo get up it's 9 already." I peaked through my eyes to my sisters, Anatasia and Amber and as usual Anatasia had a angry faced but what surprise me was even Amber my elder most sister had an annoyed face , they were both literally screaming to wake me up. Sensing this could be important I quickly got up
I rubbed my eyes to make my blurry vision clear. "So what if it's 9?." I asked Anastasia a bit annoyed. She just rolls her eyes while amber tells me " Amorea don't you know? Dad is having a business party and we all have to meet his business partner." I just looked up to her flabbergasted "no no one told me like always."
I yell at them getting a bit irate and again Anastasia rolls her eyes and says "will ya just get ready?." After that they both just left my room and I quickly runs to bathroom and started taking a shower. The water was cold I shiver I haven't turn on geezer and for a while, even tho it's cold there's something about it that makes me feel like I deserves these cold biting water so ,I just let the cold water hits my skin like a razor but at least these cold water shows me their true colour it's so much easier to find the true colour of anything except humans why are we designed like this? Why does everyone wears a mask? I can't find any good reason, people can be seen amicable but really they aren't.
"Amorea how long will ya take shower?" I heard my brother Armin yell from the outside. "Let me have my shower in peace so can you get lost?" I yell back his shower had some problems so I'm letting him use mine "shut up and shower quick I have to look good for the party" so he wanna look good? And what about Mr I'm a girl I should take more time. I shouted at him "well I don't care you can't just order me around." "Really? I can make you a servant of this house you know why because you're worthless." I became quite after all it was all true what he said after that I heard a loud bang maybe he left and sure as hell he close the door too hard. I turn off the tap and wrap myself in a towel. I walk out and there was a a red dress lying on my bed it was quit nice I just look at it for while
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I've labelled the dresses as which one is whose(Sharon is amorea's mom) . . Now it's my dad's business party time and like always I'm gonna be quite and ugly looking child among my family. I was in my dim lit room, keep on staring at the mirror I am gonna be an embarrassment to my family maybe they don't even want me come downstairs I mean no one even came looking for me.
Even tho I knew I don't deserve to be in such a rich and reputed family I just wish they wouldn't make me feel so unwanted
I started feeling this pain in heart my eyes were shiny with the tears I closed my eyes. "Stop it stop it amorea you have a purpose." I keep on chanting this when suddenly my door flew open totally baffling me, I quickly turn around to look at the person who just threw my door open without even knocking.
I bet it's Anatasia I'm gonna kill her! But to my surprise it wasn't her like I expected instead it was guy, I frown looking at him
A guy standing at my door way whom I never seen before but I look at his face to see if I know him or something and I can't help but notice how beautiful his eyes were Even in this dim lit room his blue eyes were striking, he didn't had a normal blue eye his blue wasn't just any plain blue, it was rather like a mixture of royal blue and sky blue and then light blue, it was, it was like a mysterious blue just like this guy who mysteriously came into my room
I look down at his lips, his lip were a like pinkish red they looked like he used some lip gloss or something my eyes fall to his perfect jawline that was visbly showing he's clenching.
"Never seen a man before?''. He said smugly but the clenching shows he's either stressed or annoyed neverthelesss his voice kindcatch me off guard
"I Ye-? I mean who are you and w--what are you doing here?".
I don't have any male friends so talking to male is hard for me heck let alone talking to a handsome guy is clearly not my thing but I didn't thought I'd ended up Stammer like crazy.
He just smirk at me like it's some sorta game and said "wh-what ar-are yo-u saying?" He mocked and then he said "aww the princess is scared? Do I care tho Fuck no."
