"Sometimes I like you so much I can’t stand it. It fills up inside me, all the way to the brim, and I feel like I could overflow. I like you so much I don’t know what to do with it. "
-From the book "P.S. I still love you"
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I heard a knock on the door while I was putting my light pink lip-gloss.
"come in" I said, does this shade suit me? I have no idea, I just felt like wearing this shade tonight.
"All dressed up I see" Shawn said popping his head from behind the door.
"come in" I said looking at his reflection in the mirror "do I look good?" I turned around showing him my floral white dress that goes just above my knees with a pink ribbon around the waist, I’m wearing my pink sandals and my hair is on my right shoulder.
"you always look good Callie" he said checking my outfit, on normal days I’d be pretty satisfied with such reply but not tonight, I looked at myself again in the mirror " wait, is it too much?"
"no" he replied briefly "where are you going tho?" he asked frowning.
"going on a date with Noah, he said we're going to movies and then we're going to have dinner at a restaurant, I looked it up and it's such a fancy place that's why I dressed up like this" I said beaming, he didn't say anything for some time, he just said "good, I hope you enjoy your date" and with that he left the room. I just sat on the bed for a minute or two thinking about his reaction, on my first date he was angry with me because I didn't go shopping with him to buy Erika a present, but I really don't know why he is reacting like this now. The thing is that he didn't say anything, he didn't show a sign of anger. Not even jealousy as I hoped I would see, he looked just… disappointed. I went downstairs to see if he is still here or not but, by the time I went downstairs, he was already gone.
"mum, when did Shawn leave?" I asked her, she was making salad with chicken breasts for dinner.
"right after he came downstairs, he seemed a bit off tho, did you two fight?" she asked.
"no, he just left without saying anything"
"maybe he is just sad because he is leaving tomorrow, maybe he is already homesick" and I felt like the ground was no longer steady beneath my feet. Tomorrow is Saturday, he told me several times he is leaving on Saturday, but I completely forgot. He said that we will spend his last day here watching movies and that I will stay over at his house or he will stay over at mine. I felt really guilty, guilty for making him feel that he is worthless, guilty because I put him second for the first time in my life and guilty of the look in his eyes that said how hurt he felt by me not caring about him leaving tomorrow.
Without saying a word, I headed upstairs and opened my phone to see a message from Noah.
Noah:
are you ready? I'm about to leave home x
I quickly replied:
Hi Noah, I’m really sorry but I won't be able to make it.
Noah:
Is everything okay?
Callie:
I will explain it to you when I see you okay? I'm really sorry for ruining the night for you.
Noah:
It’s fine.
Callie:
I really am sorry, I owe you a date next week.
Noah:
It’s really fine Callie! Don't worry about it x
I changed to a pair of black leggings and my fave black shirt that was basically Shawn’s, but I stole it from his wardrobe. I put my phone, charger, toothbrush, hairbrush and my pajamas in a backpack and head downstairs.
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Waiting For You // Shawn Mendes
Fanfiction"isn't it obvious?" " isn't what obvious?" "that i like you, no, actually love you and no matter where you are and what you're doing, I will always be waiting for you. I love you Shawn, it's you, it has always been you"
