Ineffable (Completed)

Special Chapter

Hi this is a special chapter. I intend to make this in a narrative way in order for the characters to show their emotions well. I hope you'll like it. See you sa epilogue, thank you so much💖

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ANA MAE

"Hi, kanina ka pa? Sorry natagalan ako may last minute call lang." I said as I reach to him.

He looks like someone from those chick flick movies. This guy is surreal. Every inch of him screams fabulous and here I am just an ordinary girl, got nothing to boost.

"Hindi ka naman late, it's not 4pm yet." He said as he look at his watched. "I'm just a bit excited that's why I came early, you know." And then he look at me direct in the eye.

Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. It feels like my world stop, oo sobrang cliché but it did happened. My heart is beating so fast, ghad I need to calm down.

"Still sorry for keeping you wait." I said as I sat beside him. Inilagay ko na rin ang dala kong gamit sa gitna namin.

An awkward silenced enveloped us. Suddenly I don't know how to talk. I just realize that it is really easy to talk on messages rather than talk to the person personally. Everything here just screams awkwardness or am I just the one who felt it?

"So handa ka ng pag-usapan kung ano yung dahilan why you left me on seenzoned." He said and look up at the sky.

I just can't stop admiring his physical features. From his brown curly hair down to his beautiful brows. His eyes twinkles every time he talks.

"I'm really sorry. Marami lang talaga akong iniisip that time. My mind over thinks all the time kaya ko yun nagawa." I said to him shyly.

"I know pero alam ko rin na may ibang rason Ana. Hindi ko lang alam kung ano ang nagawa ko at bigla kang nang-iwan. Ano nga ba ang nagawa ko Ana?" He said and he look at me directly.

Feeling ko tuloy nababasa niya kung ano ang nasa isip ko. And my heart just can't stop beating widly.

Nag-iwas ako nang tingin sa kanya para maiwasan ang tensyon na namamagitan sa amin. Para maiwasan ang pag kaba ng puso ko but I guess I failed because its still beating wildly.

"I got scared and jealous at the same time." I said and smiled a bit.

I don't really know how to explain my side. I can't find the exact words to express my thoughts. It's like my feelings for him is ineffable.

Marami akong insecurities sa katawan. I don't know how to sing like other girls can do. I'm not good at dancing. I'm not tall and not pretty at the same time. If you'll let me elaborate my insecurities I don't think matatapos ako agad.

The thing is sometimes insecurities can be a hindrance to your happiness. Insecurities are big factor why you lose self esteem and losing it means that you start to self doubt. It's not healthy and nobody deserves to feel it.

"You know I got a lot of insecurities to deal with and hearing about Yaniza actually broke my hope about us." Hindi ko talaga alam kung saan nang-galing tong ganitong emosyon na'to pero siguro dulot ito ng matinding pag ka-gusto ko sa kanya.

And I don't think Eman deserves someone like me who got a lot of issues to deal with.

Eman deserves the best and sadly I'm not the best.

"Yaniza is just a friend, nothing more" He said with conviction.

"I know." I said and look at him in the eyes. "She actually send me a message clearing things about you and her. She said that you don't have a thing and she is already engaged with Max."

"That's the real thing. She's a family friend and I never find her attractive in a romantic way. It's always just you Ana, just you." He held my hand as he said those sweet words to me.

He got me really hard. I am really speechless here. Parang lahat nung doubt ko nawala bigla, sobrang gusto ko ba siya para mag tiwala ako ng ganito? I don't really know.

"I like you Ana, let me rephrase that I'm in love with you Ana. I don't know when it started but all I know is that I can't look at other girls without thinking about you. You really got me smitten badly baby." He said and close our distance.

Suddenly we are so close from each other and my crazy heart isn't helping at all.

"Eman..." Sa dinami-dami nang salita yan lang ang nasabi ko pagkatapos niyang mag confess sa harapan ko.

"I love you." He said at bago pa ako makapagsalita he claimed my lips with his.

He kissed me like I'm the most precious gem he ever had in this world. I kissed him back hoping he'll know my feelings that I can't explain.

"I love you too Eman." I said as we stop from kissing each other.

I don't really care if someone caught us kissing. Ang alam ko lang ngayon ay sobrang saya ko at sobrang saya ng puso ko.

And I don't really care if I'm risking my heart at this. Diba sabi naman nila you can work on your own demons and fight with it. Because I just realize I can't let go of Eman, I just want him for myself. For this time I want to be selfish.

"Let's stop that chase Ana. Be mine, please." He said

"I'm yours Eman, yours only." I said and then he hug me tightly.

Ang lalaking hindi ko inakala na darating sa buhay ko ay siya pala ang para sa akin. I never wished for this yet God give me this beautiful man beside me.

Kung meron mang mag tatanong sa akin kung gaano ko kamahal si Eman siguro hindi ko masasagot iyon.

No words can compare the feelings I feel for him. My love for him is ineffable.