Secrets -changlix (straykids AU¡!)

Part 6

*warning* mention of rape and suicide attempt⚠️⚠️

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Felix's fluttered his eyes open as he gained consciousness. He was met with a bright light that caused him to hiss in pain as the light burned his eyes.
Felix adjusted his eyes to the brightness.

That was a mistake. Felix looked around realizing he was in a room he didn't know.
Then it got him.

He was in a hospital. His heart sped up as tears started to fill his eyes soon screaming, "B-Binnie!!"
Changbin woke up from his nap and saw Felix screaming his name. He quickly ran over to him.

Felix's heart was racing and he felt as if his lungs were closing in.
Changbin hugged him tight.

"Shh calm down baby. Everything is gonna be ok."
Felix Burried his face into changbins neck.
"Changbin w-why.?"
Felix silently cried into changbins neck.
"I'm sorry Lix. We had no choice...."
Felix  cried harder as the horrible images flashed through his head.

After awhile Felix's breath calmed down. "I'm here, Lix "

The doctors came in and announced that Felix could leave now.
Reaching home Felix fell asleep in the car.
He must have still been tired.

As they got home Felix was clingier than usual
It was weird. Felix clung onto Changbins arm as they sat down to watch a movie.

Changbin ignored his clinginess and focused on the movie.

Bad idea.

Felix's mind ran threw today's events. Changbin taking him to the hospital knowing it scared him. Now ignoring him...
Felix's mind flashed back to what happened years back at that hospital.

*flashback*

Felix's wrist were going numb as 'doctor kim' had his grip on them.

"Let me go!" Felix screamed, tears running down his face.

Felix soon flinched as the man pulled out a knive and put it to his throat.

"Shut your mouth worthless piece of shit. This is why no one loves you. You just never shut up do you.."
Felix let those words sink soon finding his body go limp.

Tears were rolling down his face but he didnt say anuthing. He couldn't.

His tears ran harder as he felt The man grab at his pants. He tried to move but didn't have the mental strength to do anything.

His body was now  weak along with his ego And confidence.

He felt paralyzed as he felt a sharp pain in his ass.
The pain wouldn't go away. It  just kept coming over and over.

"No one wants you in this world. Your ugly and pathetic. Your so fat. I'm doing you a favor. Tell me ,do you feel loved now.."

The man whispered with a growl pushing harder making Felix cry in pain.

"No one loves you. No one will ever love you. Your just an extra. This is all people will love you for"
Kim said as he did it again.

Felix screamed In pain but stopped as he felt a slap on his cheek.

"Shut the fuck up!..."

Felix fell even more limp as things soon started going blurry still feeling the pain.

Soon everything went black hearing the man say,
"You should just kill yourself.!"

*end of flashback*

Felix didn't realize he was shaking till he felt Changbin shake his arm.

"Are you okay?"
Felix bit his lip before answering.
"Yeah, just cold. Ima go to bed."

Changbin nodded.

Felix stared for a second then got up and walked to the room.
He lied in the bed and tried to fall asleep.

But he couldn't.

His mind was filled with the same thoughts from earlier.  Was what the man said true? Don't be dumb. Of course it was true everything he said was true.

Felix felt the tears run down his face but quickly wipes them as Changbin entered.

Felix closes his eyes and pretended to be asleep.
Changbin soon fell asleep.

Around 2am Felix go out of bed and headed outside.
Felix walked to the store.

He bought 10 bottles of alcohol and told the person there was a party.

Felix got home with the bottles. He looked at the asleep Changbin and whisper

"I love you"

Felix walked to the furthest bathroom filling the tub.
He got in with his clothes on and opened the bottles not forgetting to lock the door.

I'm not loved. No one loves me. Dr Kim was right. He used me. Yoongi used me. My dad used me. Everyone just uses me. Changbin doesn't love me....
He is proboly using me too....

More tears fell.

Felix quickly chugged all then bottles hopping his pain would disappear.
If he was lucky he would too.

Felix smiled as he felt himself get really dizzy. His stomach felt as if it was going to explode

His heart started to hurt and he felt as if his chest was closing in on him.

He started to cry.  He was happy.....
He was finally gonna leave this world.
This is what a worthless person like me deserves.

Felix heard banging on the door and Changbin screamed his name.

Felix passed out but not before whispering
"I l-love you. I'm a-sorry..."

Oof. Shit sorry for slow updates👌
사랑해💜