My Complicated Highschool Life

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Jin's POV
We were walking on our way to my home. Since I live all alone we would find no disturbance talking and sorting out the matters. It was damn silence that kept me glancing at Jhope who showed no emotions on his face. We stop in front of the door "let me open the door wait a sec." I go in opening the door turning on the lights and Jhope followed me "just relax and sit on the sofa I will be back soon,I guess we need snacks to continue talking some bestie stuffs." I smile to which he nods and I leave to prepare some things for us.

Jhope's POV
I was sitting there on the sofa at Jin's place . It was so clean and organized as expected of him. I don't really know how I will explain him the things or how he will take it but looks like I can't hide it anymore. I am afraid of showing him this vulnerable side of me. I have been his strong pillar all the way his life and now I can't just bring his hopes down come on I am the hope right here. But what if he hates me after I say and confess everything? I shrugged these thoughts off when I saw Jin coming and placing the tray of sandwiches and juice on the table. I smile at him perhaps a fake one. "Jin you promise me you won't break our friendship, promise me you won't be angry ,promise me you will not take it by heart." I look at him and spoke in a really very serious tone cuz I know this shit is serious and I have to be serious when it comes to my Jin. He was looking at me with a confused look on his face. " I-I Jhope w-what" I cut him off and raise my voice "Jin Just PROMISE" he was taken aback "I promise, and pabo I would never do that, you are the best person to ever come in my life. I can't think of living without you just chill ok?" His pure smile has always given me support, he is the only one I have in my life other than my mom. I sit close to Jin and hold Jin's hand surprising him we are only few inches apart and then I look at his concerned look,his grip tightens on my hands and he smiles. I smile back trying not to look weak. Without thinking much I start speaking "Jin you remember the time when I was diagnosed in hospital I told you it was just some small complications and I will be fine very soon?.... I was lying." My eyes were turning wet now. I look at him whose eyes were widened. "H-Hoseok w-wha-" "Yeah doctor said that there was only 50% chance of my survival, I was totally numb,my mother was sitting beside me and was crying out loud. I used to pass out for like every once in a day. I was supposed to be happy to survive and that was my cure I ate a lot of medicines but without encouragement and hope it was useless and that's when I met you Kim Seokjin." I look at him again only to see him cry like a baby, his head down almost leaning on my shoulder. "H-hey why are you crying?" I asked him softly. And he hits me hard on my back. "Owww....What was that for!?" "You are such an idiot Jung Hoseok you never said these things to me even when I am your best friend." I smile "and that is the reason why I never said these things to you" he stared at me. "What?but why?" "Jin you were a special person for me.... Let me finsih first" I scolded him and he nodded wiping his cheek. " I started remaining gloomy all day but you were the first person to ever showed some care towards me, the day you approached me and started talking to me I felt so good and you continued doing that everyday people would diss me but you were there by my side helping me and teaching real good things and manners, I started dancing and doing what I enjoyed the most knowing the consequences cuz you were there to cheer me up...well how old were we back then? 7 years?" I chuckled a bit as I continued "and that's how we became friends I got to know about your problems too I was sad for you so I did not want to burden you more by explaining my ailing illness too. I wanted to make you happy like you always did to me. I wanted to be the reason behind your smile and never show my weakness to keep you strong. By doing so deep down I was becoming strong too. My mother took me abroad for a check up and guess what ? I was improving really well." He looks at me " the time you said you were visiting a relative of yours?" I nod ."yeah that's the time but then when I came back I realized something, back then I thought it was just some teen crush or so but I was in love and I was scared to confess it knowing about my illness and that too to my best friend." I pause causing Jin to make an expressionless face. "I thought if I confess will my best friend accept me as someone more than that? will he start hating me for it? Will he break our friendship? And what if I die soon? What if I cause him problem and break his heart? I was weak and did not want to lose him. So I decided to forget about him but it was hard he was my only remedy I can't resist him. His presence brought me peace I just can't get rid of those feelings for him. So I decided to date someone. It happened to be Min Yoongi, Suga. We came in relationship and after 3 months of being together I finally told him about my disease and he was angry at me for ruining his future and wasting his time as he too started feeling for me