My Complicated Highschool Life

Looking for love

Jimin's POV

Looks like Jin has started making new friends. Well no wonder he is just so attractive and kind that everyone wants to befriend him unlike me. I know he will leave me sooner or later and here I am shamelessly sticking with him cuz I want him to be my friend as well. I sigh.

"Jimin you look so handsome today."

"Wh-What!!?? W-Where did that c-come from?" I stuttered. Stupid me. Why am I like this.

Jin giggles "and cute too" he makes me blush so easily.

"You know you should not play with me like that. I am not handsome and something like cuteness is too far to reach. You are though." I say as I sip my juice. We are waiting for others to join us at the canteen. They all are busy and will be back soon. Good for me cuz I got some time alone with Jinnie. Our plan is to watch Movie today.

"Hey don't say that. You are so charming and you emit a really very charasmatic aura even when you are doing nothing." Jin complimented me. And I do believe this is going far now.

"That's all Jin! I don't want to listen to your fake compliments. Please stop." I raised my hand to stop him and get up off my chair to run towards the bathroom.

Shit! I messed up!! Why are you like this Jimin! Why are you so dumb and ugly this is the reason why noone wants to be your friend why no one wants to be your brother. You are only a burden on everyone. I mentally curse myself.

I hear footsteps nearing me. It's Jin. I quickly splash water on my face to hide away my formed tears.

Jin's POV

"Did I say something wrong? What happened?" I run after him the toilet and see him splashing water on his face. Is he unwell?

"Jimin...here..." I reach out my hanky to him. He takes it without even glancing at me. Come on! What did I say!?

"Are you ok?" He nods.

"Why did you run out like this? Did I say something wrong?" I look at him in concern. He was about to say something but instead said "it's nothing"

"I was worried for you...." I say as I step closer to him.

"You were worried? For me?" He asks as if not believing what I am saying.

"Yah!! Ofc I was! Why are you so shocked!? I thought I offended you or maybe you aren't well...and I was so inconsiderate to not ask you if you are doing fine or not." I scold him. "Do not just run away ever again like that" I smiled "Or else I won't make you lunch anymore" I chuckled but he looks...serious...

Suddenly I was pulled in a warm embrace. His hug was so warm and relaxing. He is shorter than me his head resting on my shoulder. "I am sorry Jin....but I am like this..." His voice cracks in the end. "I know you wouldn't want to be around me anymore I am not someone anyone would want to be friends with." I pulled him away from me and looked into his eyes.

"Say what? Now you scaring me...what are you talking about? We already are friends..."

"Jin I know you are good hearted and all but believe me I am not enough for you to be friends with me. You are so handsome,smart and an amazing person I am nothing in comparison to you. I know if you hang out with me you too will look dull beside me."

He has low self esteem or he ain't self confident about himself at all. He just sees those flaws in him and that's keeping him down. "Jimin.." I held his small shoulder into my arms "your value doesn't decrease based on someone's inability to see your worth. I for God's sake find you extremely charming and kind and that is enough for me to know you to be friends with you. I don't need your judgmental thoughts to be sure about what I am doing cuz I know what I am doing. Stop messing around with yourself."