Evil Souls 🔞

Chapter 23

*Y/n's POV*

After having lunch, we both ended up talking. I had so much in stock with me, that it consumed almost whole afternoon. Mostly, Jungkook would be the one asking multiple questions and I would answer him in a row. Curiosity lingered whenever he would ask anything. How perfect the moment seemed to be. He acted like a freaking teenager whenever his questions slip from his lips. No wonder how happy I feel seeing him this content.

"God, looks like I missed a lot." He sighed while rubbing his face with his palms.

"Yeah, you did. And no wonder how everyone else would be to see you all fit and fine." I mumbled as I glanced outside the window. "Oh my, it's already evening." I frowned and he let out a giggle.

"You talk a lot. Anyways, Kara told me you asked them to come here and she got a call from Namjoon hyung that they'll be here by the evening." Jungkook informed and I nodded, taking in the news. We then talked a bit about some random stuffs.

It was amazing to hear him. His voice was just laced with honey and whenever any word slip out of his mouth, it would make me fall in euphoria. I missed every single detail about him. His absence among us actually made me realize how much I love him. But..... does he feels the same?

I tried multiple times to avoid this question, but somehow it ends up messing up with my brain. I can't help but wonder at how would it feel to love and to be loved.

I've experienced love of my family. How it feels to know that there's someone back at home worrying about us. Mom, dad and Jimin oppa. They loved me like there's no tomorrow and not to mention how much I miss that. I'm happy that a part of my family is left behind.

Jimin is indeed the best brother in the whole world. He was there to make me happy back when I was kid, and he is here with me now. I just wonder, how it would be to have a complete family.

Since I have left with only a brother, few friends who are more than a family and a person with whom I don't even know what relation I bear. I've learned to cherish what I have with me. These boys were there with me since the day I lost my mom and dad. I'm more than grateful for that. I don't know what I would've done if Jungkook didn't took me with him. What if Irina didn't found me.

Jungkook from the day one took care of me. Yet he was an asshole in the beginning and I've not forgiven him for that, but still he had done enough for me to owe my life to him. Before the accident we spend just a little time with each other, but those beautiful memories are still fresh in my mind. I still remember the first time he kissed me. It was indeed my first kiss but it felt nice. I don't even regret a bit about that. His touches were so refreshing and it still is. The way he made me feel alive when I completely lost my hopes. It's all so much for me to endure.

Yet, Jungkook and me is the most terrible topic right now. I don't know what kind of relationship we have. Or if it's a relationship? I don't know the answer and maybe he also does not. I'm not used to being in a relationship or having someone else along with my family to take care of me. It's all new to me. But in the end of the day I love him.... right?

I know I do love him, but I need to process the fact before I imply on it. In short i need time, more time and want Jungkook to have his own personal space. He is recovering right now and I want him to be all fit and and fine on his two. I can't handle these responsibilities anymore. I want Jungkook to take back what's his. I am just a mare replacement and I'm literally tired of being like this.

I want to end up my goal soon and live a normal life... But the path that I've opted for, does allow me to live a normal life? I don't know the answer yet, but soon I'll find it out.