glitch × stray kids

fifteen

"are you feeling okay now?" i heard someone say when i just opened my eyes.

"i'm fine" i was about to sit up when changbin push me back to ask me lie down.

"what happened back there?"

"you fainted out of a sudden, and we brought you back home straightaway" i heard disappointment in his tone.

"i'm sorry"

"what?" he asked and i cursed myself in my head. i though i had said that quietly.

i shook my head.

"you hungry?" he asked and i mouthed 'a bit'

"i'll grab some porridge that the boys bought for you, so just wait here" he chuckled and ruffled my hair.

once i was sure that he had left, i took his phone and check the date.

I heaved a sigh since the date was a day after the everland trip.

"here you go" changbin came with a tray. i sat up straight.

i told him that i could eat it by myself but he keep on insisting that im still weak and all.

"oh yeah. before i fainted, I heard you saying my korean name. how did you know about it?" I asked and he scratched his head.

"ahh, you murmured it in your dream before" i nodded.

"it's a nice name but why aren't you using it?" he asked making me put down my spoon.

"cause my mum gave that name to me. my parent's love story was a romantic one, my dad met my mom while he was in a student exchange trip in korea and he fell in love with her when he saw her for the first time. 5 years ago, my mum was bringing me to korea for the first time to visit my grandparents here but unfortunately the plane crash and i was the only survivor. the plane crashed near america and i didn't have any memory loss so my father was thankful for that but just 2 years ago, he found a replacement for my mom. she's nice but i still can't see her as my mum. that's when I also decided to never use my korean name again" i wiped the tears that was falling down.

"then, the reason that you didn't took that high ride that day was because..." he trailed off.

"yep, i developed a trauma due to the plane crash. that's why since that accident, i never took a plane" i said.

"im sorry about your mum" he said softly.

"anyways, can you keep my korean name a secret?" i asked and he nodded.

"you've really been through a lot" he said and hugged me.

the warmth that he's giving me. it's making me forget about everything and because of that I hug him tighter.

"i love you" i whispered in Spanish not wanting him to understand yet.