glitch × stray kids

twenty

"morning, ugly" i heard when i opened my eyes.

"good morning ugly v2.0" i replied back.

"what time is it?" i asked him and he reached his hand to the table to check his phone.

"10 am" he said and put his phone on the table.

"i still wanna cuddle" he continued.

he then hugged me.

"well, you are cuddling me" i laughed.

"i don't want time to pass. i just wanna stay with you like this forever" he said.

"bin, you know that's not possible" my tone became serious.

"i know, i do know but what happens if there's a miracle" he pouted.

"well, meeting you is already a miracle but every dream has to go back to it's reality. and it's hard for any of us to admit but this all..." i trailed off.

"could be a dream" i continued and felt a tear flowed.

"if you're crying, then i will too" he said making me smile.

"i won't idiot" i ruffled his hair.

i let go from his embrace and sat up.

"why? is there anything wrong?" he asked and i shook my head.

"i wanna shower, i feel sticky" i said.

"after u shower, im gonna hug you straightway" he said and i glared at him.

"i will make sure to push you if you ever do that to me" i said and went out of the room.

i went inside the toilet, closed door and then the toilet bowl.

i sat down and i started to teared up.

i thought i could hold it in but i couldn't. i just can't.

i opened the shower knob to let the water and my tears flow down together.

i wanted to sob out loud and shout so badly. but i couldn't.

how i really wished we had met in real life.

"sam?" i heard someone called me.

"im showering" i said softly trying to cover up my sobs.

"finish your shower and then meet me okay?" i recognised the person who had called me.

"okay" i agree reluctantly.

after i finished shower, i went in my room and saw changbin who was sleeping. i found myself smiling while looking at him.

i put on my clothes and went out to see chan who was waiting outside for me.

"do you wanna talk about it?" he asked and i stood there quietly.

"let's go and take a walk." i nodded and i trailed behind chan.

"here's your bubble tea" he handed the drink and i took it.

"you know that you can trust me right? since i kinda know you longer than the others" he said.

"i'm scared chan, really scared" i started to cried.

"sam" he said and hugged me.

"i assure you that you will meet all of us in sooner or later" chan said.

i cried in his arms, staining his black hoodie.

(i feel that this chapter is so bad and im so sorry for it as im busy with my school. im also having writer's block and promised that the next few chapters won't be disappointing.
p.s. there's only five chapters left in this story)