glitch × stray kids

twenty four

changbin pov

eunseo looked at me for the last time and gave me her last smile before she disappeared.

"okay guys, sorry for this short vlive but i will make sure to do a full one tomorrow. bye stays!" chan hyung said and end the live broadcast.

my legs suddenly got jelly making me fall down to the floor. 

"changbin-ah" woojin hyung said to me.

tears started to fall and my vision got blurry because of the tears that are forming in my eyes.

"i miss her" it was so hard for me to form my words.

"guys i know she said to read the letter at home but do you all want to read it now?" chan hyung hesitated.

"hyung maybe now is not-"

"i think it's best to read it now" i interrupted hyunjin.

"if that's what you want changbin" chan hyung and read the letter.

dear Stray Kids,

thank you so much for giving me a place to stay, feeding me and buying necessary stuffs for me. i bet it was hard for all of you. when suddenly there's a girl who claims to be from america is somehow transported to korea due to a glitch from her phone. but you guys still took me in, and that wasn't easy.

i actually didn't tell you guys something. when i leave, all these memories would be a dream. you won't remember me anymore as all my stuff and memories that includes me.

will be gone.

im sorry but that's the way it has to be and im not really sure if i will experience the same thing as you guys.

im sorry chan, jeongin, hyunjin, minho, jisung, felix, woojin, seungmin and changbin.

im sorry my love, changbin for not telling you.

even though we might not remember those memories that we made, our heart will remember the feelings that we felt during those memories.

i love you changbin.

sorry and thank you, stray kids

i read her second last sentence and left the room.

i left my members who were probably shocked behind.

i reached home and locked myself in my room. i saw my hoodie that she was wearing this morning on my bed.

i hugged it and tears were streaming down my cheek.

"when i leave, all these memories would be a dream. you won't remember me anymore as all my stuff and memories that includes me.

will be gone."

"why didn't you tell me idiot" i whispered.

"WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME, EUNseo" i shouted and threw the hoodie across the room.

the door opened and i felt someone's arms wrapped around me.

"changbin-ah, you have to calm down" he softly said and i gripped on his arm.

"why didn't she tell me?" i asked.

"she didn't want you to get hurt and she knows that you will stop her no matter what to make her stay" chan hyung answered.

"chan hyung, she should at least had said something" i retorted with a weak voice.

"it was hard for her too, changbin" chan said.

"you should rest. i know you will probably complain about losing your memories and all but my best advice for you is to try recall all your memories that you made with her. remember those feelings that you felt when you made those memories too. remember what she said, even though we might not remember those memories that we made, our heart will remember the feelings that we felt during those memories." chan continued.

"now go to sleep" chan tucked me in and picked up the hoodie that i had thrown to the floor and put it beside me.

seungmin pov

chan hyung went out from his room giving an expression that i couldn't read.

"seungmin" he called my name.

"you knew about it, am i right" i kept quiet and nodded my head.

"why did you hyung?!" jeongin shouted.

"I HAD NO CHOICE! IT WASN'T LIKE I WANTED TO KEEP IT A SECRET BUT THAT DUMB GIRL TOLD ME NOT TO TELL ANYONE!" i shouted back.

"she didn't want anyone to hold her back" i calmed myself down and continued my words.

"no, she didn't want him to hold her back cause she know that she will stay and disappear" woojin hyung said.

"she was trying to protect us, especially him" jisung said quietly.

"guys" chan hyung said and everyone looked at his direction.

"we have no choice but to move on with our lives. this is sad for everyone since we will forget her but im sure that she wants us to remember the good memories for the last time" chan hyung continued.

"even though we might not remember the memories that we made, our heart will remember those feelings that we felt during those memories hyung said.

"she said that for a purpose" felix said after being quiet for the whole time.

"i'll you guys sleep latest by 2 am and if i see anyone awake after that timing, you will face the consequences" chan hyung said and went back to his room.

"seungmin, it's not your fault. if i was you, i would have done the same thing either" hyunjin patted my back.

a/n: first of all, THANK YOU FOR 1K😊!! i was actually in a bad mood but when i saw 1k in the viewer's count, it brightened my day so thank you everyone.

live update: my heart is somehow going haywire cause there's this guy in my class and he acts kind to me making me feel all sorts of emotion. the thing is, my self-esteem is low and exams are coming up so whoops