Forbidden Lights (LUMIERE BOOK 2)

Chapter 4

Harry's Pov.

''You love her, I can see that, June can see that, the whole world can. But it's useless if she is the only one to ignore it. I've never saw two people loving each other as much as you two do, but the problem with Grace is this one, she can't just care about people. When she gives herself to someone, she doesn't know middle ground. She gives herself completely.'' Alex explains and my heart aches.

''You're saying Grace thinks she loves me but in reality she simply sees me like the most important person in her life, like I'm some kind of sick best friend?'' Alex shakes his head and I sigh in relief. God I could bare anything in this world but not being friend with her.

''I'm just saying There are no simple friends for her, she just loves people with all herself, making them her whole life and sometimes, care and love get confused. I do the same Harry because, like Grace, I don't know how to just care.'' I look at my hands on my lap and see that I'm still half naked in a fucking December night. I'm going to catch a cold but I can't feel a single thing, so I don't know If I'm cold or hot or anything else.

''You telling me you kind of love Grace the way you love June?'' Alex takes off his jumper and gives it to me. only a thin little white shirt is there to cover him. it's a bit too little but I manage to fit in.

''In my own and maybe wrong way, yes. I love Grace. Not the way I do for June, but it gets pretty close'' I want to punch him so bad, if I wasn't too busy thinking about her I would have probably done it already. How dare him to have feelings for my girl?

''She's mine Alex. You can't take her away, I will not forgive it to you. Never. it's better of you kill me now and don't let me found out you love her the way I do'' I simply state as it's some kind of law no one knows but everybody should.

'' I know. I have June and I only want her. But if you hurt Grace, you're done with me for good. Because she doesn't deserve another asshole in her life.'' that hurts pretty bad. Don't know if it's for the fact that Alex will put Grace's happiness over my friendship or because I know I'm not the only one who will be ready to catch a bullet for her. Which scares me, because It means she will not only depend on me.

***

I burst into the house like a tornado and run towards the stairs where I know Grace's room is.

''Hey!'' I hear Damian saying but I stop him placing an hand on his chest. I feel like I may explode any moment into billion pieces and I don't need him to anger me even more. I need to see her. I need her now. she's the only one that can have tamed the animal inside of me, she's the peace I need in my life, the sound that can help me sleep at night. And if I don't see her, I'm going to fucking burn everything around me down.

''Don't fucking try and stop me. where is she?'' he stays silent but I don't wait for him to block my way. '' Fine, I'm going to find her all alone'' I shove past him and take the stairs; two at time. when I see her white door, something inside of me screams not to open and give her time. Maybe she doesn't want to see me, but if I let her go for even one night, I'm afraid she will get used to not have me around. And I may go insane if this happen because Grace is what I want and need.

I turn the knob in the right moment where Damian makes his appearance on the staircase and get in, locking the door as fast as I can.

When I raise my eyes to meet her figure, I understand I'm not ready for the amount of emotion I feel inside of me. Her back is bare and she's pulling a shirt on. Her white skin, now free from any kind of scratches, is so beautiful that I find myself imagining to caress it. I can even feel it under my fingertips even if I can't touch it.

''Damian, what the hell...'' she says rushing to cover herself and turning around. She freezes and my name leaves her lips with that slinky sound that melts my heart instantly. I gulp down and look her from upside down, feeling my legs shaking for the pleasure her figure can give me.