The rush of the sky flock my eyes it returned the same look of his face. Those perfect figures of his lips surely every woman will look, his eyes a bewildering flecks of colors like a crystal water. His man killer figure that suits his body, almost perfect. The sun is setting down already I know he’s tired but he still manage to stop by the bridge though I really expected it. “You can leave me. I’m okay here Frank” I said not looking at him, I felt him look at me “I won’t. And I will never” He answered. This is him again I face him and he just gave me a stern look. I sighed at the contact he changed a lot he became more matured, dominant not the fact that he really is now. You can sense his power and strength, as human. “Why are you doing this to me?” I asked very much of confusion.
“Because you’re part of my life and you’re the only piece I need to complete everything.” He sounded so serious. I don’t know how to react and what to say because the more I talk the more he gives his thoughts towards me.
I heard him sighed countless of times it was the serene of feeling, awkwardness arise. We are both in the deep experience of silence only the dash of boats and light- sounded violins are the only thing can be heard. Then soon all the lights started to grow in the big city of Sydney. “Talk to me babe… Please” Please it sounded like an echo in my ear those begging voice through his mouth came like the point of crying. “You-…” was the only thing I can say.
“Zooey, babe-”
“Why?” I finally got the chance to speak but the pain through my throat shrewd like a big lump of stone “Tell me Frank what’s more important than our relationship… to live me?” my voice broke then all my tears shattered like a broken glass of pain and fear.
“Zooey I-…”
“You tell me Frank?” I breakdown gritted my teeth and exasperated asking him.
“Okay. But you need to stop crying” He said and I raise an eyebrow at him “I can’t. It just won’t stop” I demanded while wiping the tears away
“Zooey you know it’s hard for me to see you cry , endlessly” He said cupping my face but I can’t bare looking at him for a long time it makes me feel more emotional and guilty at the same time.
I faced the view across the outlandish cities down the bay soon the wind start blowing not that hard but it kept on throwing more energy. Lastly I took a glance over the sky it was stunning, I felt him turned also and like me he was just amazed by its beauty.
“I came here for a reason.” He said inserting the chance explaining to me. I remained silent so he just continued “Maybe I did run away from you…” “But I did that to let you live happy without thinking and causing you problem.” I turned to him but he kept starring across the bay. I restrain myself from crying again, why is he telling me this? He just let out a small length of smile “I loved the way I lived my life then and now but it was so hard for me struggling the pain I got for internal” I struggle the urge of letting my tears fall “to see you happy is a realization that I got the perfect woman for me that made me think you are the most wonderful paragon in my life it made me proud that you change me a lot more than I knew but I was a coward, coward enough to protect and return the love you gave me instead I turn my back against you. And little did I know I never knew it would lead into a huge mistake that made me regret everything…” He explained more and so I respected his permission.
“3 years ago our relationship was perfect then everything turned into a nightmare that it killed me with guiltiness. I admitted I was a jerk before but like I said you changed me to the fullest” He took a glimpse of me with a smile but instantly change into something dark, sad and guilty. He sighed heavily as if he was in so much agony. “And I hate myself… For betraying the love of my life” And I got shocked by his words though I do not understand what was it.
“I went here because I thought it was a right decision to do but it just made me weaker thinking that I will leave you clueless. I tried to talk with you or even planned a chance for a conversation with you but seeing you glad and carefree kept me silent from telling you-…”
“What is it Frank?” I cut him trying to keep myself courageous
“I can’t” He said but I wanted to know everything so I cupped his face and tried to face me. “Tell me please…” I beg and my tears finally break free
“I- I’m sorry” this time he was already crying “Frank” I called him again
“I went here year ago because of a girl named Tania. And before you there was her. I met her in the bar at New York, she was nice and every guy would wish to date her and so we started hanging out and then after a month of introducing ourselves we click. Every relationship involves sexual interaction we both did but we always use a protection, but even though we use there is also a time we forget using or her taking pills.” From that moment I have an idea already but I want him to continue more
“Then one day she called saying she wanted to meet me but I did not want because I was so mad at her for living me, I ignored her at first then I never heard anything coming from her again. I’d move on for a long time, till I met you. We both started as friends then we both fall in love and got married we lived happily and I thought it was permanent but no… I received a call again it was a long time since I heard from her again. She was so desperate that time to see me I did not wanted to but then she begged and I give it to her. I was surprised with what I saw she introduced me to a child and claimed that it was my daughter I can’t believe her to the point I’d reject the child but she explained everything and as proof she gave me the DNA-…”
“Stop” I cut him already shivering I can’t understand what I feel by now mixed pain, anger, empty and even feel sick. I cried holding my mouth those revelations are too much and I can’t take it anymore but it kept me from talking all we can hear is our sobs. I feel like my life was so destroyed and functional anymore I couldn’t believe it my Frank, the guy whom I sacrifice everything, and the guy I only love betrayed me… I don’t care how much time we are taking, silence. All my life looked like it was filtered with lies and so it was. I was numb but I remembered one thing…
”What was her name?” I asked with bitterness, he just look at me with so much pity but I don’t care anymore all I wanted to know his answer and that was
“Guianah.” As I heard that no more tears poured down instead nag of pain.
And I cursed Frank for being a jerk.
Sorry for the long wait! I’m really having a dilemma in school and I hope you still support my story.
_Desteen_
