|| She was never Mine || KNJ

Chapter 19

" Yeah. Sure. So tell me, how you fell for Namjoon? How you rejected me for him ?"

My heart stopped at that very moment.

Did I hear it right?

She fell for me?

Rejected Suga for me?

My voice was caught in my throat.

I forgot to breathe for the whole moment.

" Suga, Please understand. I-" I heard Y/n sobbing across the phone.

I hung up the phone and headed for their apartment. I was afraid. I might lose her again if I didn't confess to her about my feelings.

Everything made sense now. She was too shy to confront me about her feelings. She never dared to say it because everyone would call her a ' cheater.'

By the time, I reached their door. I saw Suga walking out angrily. He stood in front of me with teary eyes.

" So you are here to take her with you, aren't you ?" He asked as a tear rolled down his eyes.

I kept quiet because I got no answer to his question. He walked away. I rushed inside calling out to Y/n.

" Y/n! Y/n! Y/n, where are you ?"

I heard her muffled cries in the dead silence of the house. I ran towards their room but the door was locked.

" Y/n! Open up! Look! It's me! Open up! Y/n! Listen! Don't do anything foolish !" I banged on the door real hard but her cries became audible now.

" Y/n! Please! Open the door! Y/n! I know you can hear me! Please, open the door! Y/n !" I continued to bang on her door.

" I won't open the door. I don't want you to see me crying."

I heard her across the door. I tried to open the door but the shit wasn't even getting damaged. I used my whole body force to open the door and banged my body against it.

After a few attempts, it did open with Y/n sitting on the ground against her bed. She had her knees close to her chest and eyes red from crying.

" He said I don't love him anymore." She muttered in a low voice.

" Y/n !" I ran to her and checked if she did anything to harm herself but she was fine. I held her close. Her face buried in my chest. She just sat there like a lifeless girl.

" Y/n! Y/n, tell me what happened? What happened here ?" I asked

" He doesn't love me anymore...... He said ' he doesn't love me anymore.' .... But I.... still love him, Joon. He doesn't understand." Y/n tried to sound normal but failed to do so.

" Y/n, everything will be fine." I held her close in my arms.

" That's what mom said all the time." She muttered.

I parted and looked in her eyes. She smiled lightly but painfully.

" My mother said the same thing but I guess it was a lie. She blamed father and father blamed her."

" I don't understand your words, Y/n."

" My parents were married just for namesake. They said ' they love each other.' But they acted as if they were strangers. Years made their marriage weak and dull. "

She looked so broken and hurt. She looked lost and worn out of life.

" There was never genuine love between them. I was afraid that I would end up just like them. I was afraid that Suga and I would love each other just for our affection towards each other." She looked emotionally frustrated.

" Y/n, you won't turn up like them. Everyone is different in dealing with things." I replied trying to make eye contact.

" But I am their daughter. Why won't I act just like them after marriage ?" She asked.

" You need to calm down. You are not making sense now." I held her in my arms again, trying to console her. But she was still broken in my arms. She kept on mumbling things.

" Suga says ' I don't love him anymore and how I have changed from the girl he used to know.' He doesn't believe me when I say that I loved him with my whole heart." Y/n parted to look at me.

" Do you think the same, Joon? You don't believe in my love either, right ?" She asked me.

" No." I paused. " I think love never changes. Not even after thousand years. It is always there. " I replied by staring in her eyes.

" You said it so easily." She didn't believe my words.

" That's because my love never changed."

" For whom ?" She asked.

I drew closer to her face.

Holding it in my hands.

Tracing my thumb on her cheekbone.

Staring right in her eyes.

My eyes shifted to her lips as I leaned in.

" For you."

I replied as our lips meet.

Author-nim here ~

This chapter was shitty af. God! I am glad you guys made through it. I promise to make the future chapters much better than this one.