|| She was never Mine || KNJ

Chapter 12

" I'm bored. Suga is busy." She pouted.

" Ah ! I see." I tried to give a reaction.

" Joon !" She excitedly called my name.

" What ?" I looked up to her.

" Let's hang out together."

She jumped with happiness. I decided to show her around the streets and do some shopping as well. She readily agreed for it. Well, obviously we got to hide our identity so we dressed accordingly.

At the store, Y/n was looking through some men's sweatshirts. While I looked for some casuals. I called her over to ask her opinion on my chosen t-shirt.

" Huh ! So expensive !" She goshed loudly getting people's attention.

" You don't like it ?" I asked.

" It is good but not your type. Try something else." She suggests.

" Sure. You are buying that sweatshirt  ?" I asked pointing at black sweatshirt.

" Nah ! It's too expensive. I was thinking of buying it for Suga but nevermind." She sighed as she goes back to keep the cloth back to its place.

I turned around to chose another tshirt only to overhear a couple's conversation. I looked up to the couple. The guy was letting his girlfriend chose between two shirts. I found them cute and so much in love.

" Y/n, which one will suit me ?" I asked holding one sweater in each hand.

" Hmmm." She looked thoughtfully at both of them. " Maybe you should try them on. "

" Okay. Let's go." I grabbed her hand and led her to the changing room. She waited outside while I tried the sweaters on.

" This one is nice. Try the other one." She would say for the first one.

" Hmmm. This one is also nice. I don't know, Joon. I cannot make a decision." She pouted.

She rose from her seat and walk away only to come back with a black long sleeved turtleneck shirt.

" I guess this will look amazing on you !" She handed me the shirt . " Try it on !" She pushed me towards the trial room.

I was a little skeptical about it. But still I tried it on and as soon as I stepped out of the room. Y/n's jaws dropped on the floor. She walked towards me with eyes locked on me.

" Wow ! Joon, you look ... handsome." She said dreamily. " Did you like it ?"

" I don't  know. I mean its nice." I replied.

" I know what to do !" She replied excitedly.

She pulled the sleeves to my elbow and brushed my hair back a bit. She stood on her toes to brush my hair so she held me by my shoulder. It was the closest that I have seen her.

" Done." She goes back to her feet.

" Joon, I swear if I wasn't dating Suga. I would've surely fallen in love with you." She  complimented me.

I looked at her and she meant every word she spoke to me. She smiled at me.

" Armys will be dead by this look." She joked. I chuckled at her exaggerations.

It was getting dark so we decided to head back to bighit. She was hungry and wanted to taste street food but since it would be crowded. We decided not to go in order to hide our identity.

" Let's order some food once we get back to bighit." I suggested to which she agreed.

She held my hand in her hand as we walked back to the building. She seemed very cool about it. Whereas my heart started racing again.

I always wanted to hold the hand of the girl I love.

Today, I did.

I realized how much she matched my ideal type.

She's smart.

She's cute.

She's someone I can lean on.

She makes me happy.

She was beautiful and imperfectly perfect.

I realized how much I missed her...

When she wasn't around.

How much I liked her in her own ways.

How I want her to walk beside me.

How I want her to spend time with me.

How I love---

" Yoongi !" She called his name as she let go of my hand.

How I realized.....

she's someone whom ....

I'll never have in my life.