Stray kids little sister

Thanks

The past 2 weeks has been rough for you.

2 days after the release of side effects , your mom sent you a paper. It was a restraining order.

In legal terms , it ultimately meant that your mom and your whole family had officially disowned you.

It hit you hard , because even though you didn't talk to them ever , you still considered them family. But what hurt more was , you gave them everything , you heart , your soul , your trust but they gave nothing good back. All they gave back was abuse , hate , disgust , and eventually disowning you.

You felt worthless , lost , lonely , overwhelmed all at once.

Everything was piling up really quick.
Side effects , group promotions , solo prep , shows , and court interviews about the restraining order , etc .

It really wasn't doing you any good. 

Thankfully your members , especially hyunjin and chan have been really helpful in everything.
They understood that all you wanted at the moment was to be alone. They understood that your mind was going to be racing in different thoughts. But they also helped you with advice on what to do. They helped you get over it. And as cheesy as it sounds , They made you feel worthy again.

But even after getting over it , you still had thoughts about what you wanted to say to your now-not family.

You told hyunjin this and him being the genius he is , he suggested writing everything you wanted to say on a piece of paper and then burning it. To a normal human being , that isn't the best solution as you could set something else on fire accidentally , or you could hurt yourself or the other living beings around you but you were too caught up into thoughts that you had no thinking left to realize any of that.

You spent about 1 hour in the living room of your guys dorm pouring all your anger , frustration, and sadness into the letter.

Eventually you finished the letter at around 7 pm and calmed yourself down before calling hyunjin as he told you too.

'Oppa-'
'Come to the playground we went to on our first date , me and the rest are here. Bring the letter and a lighter'

As with that he ended the call leaving you confused but followed along. you were about to get up and change but you looked down at what you were wearing which was just a black shirt with grey sweatpants and decided that it was good enough. You just decided to grab a jacket cause it gets a little cold at night.

You grabbed your phone , the letter   a lighter and your mask and left the dorms turning off the lights behind you.

The whole walk there your mind kept going from one thought to another. You couldn't focus on one thought. You weren't anxious but at the same time you were.

You walked for about 5 minutes until multiple voices cut your train of thought.

"Noona's There !!" A high-pitched voice shouted , which you immediately figure it was jeongin

You took your mask off and walked a little faster towards them and you were tackled into a hug from hyunjin and soon everyone.

Once you guys broke your hug you pulled out the letter and lighter from your pocket and stared at it before looking up at everyone for approval.

"Go ahead" woojin said and you nod in response

The lighter sparked then lit. A mini explosion in your hand. You put the flame onto the corner of the paper the paper that had all your pain , sadness , anger , frustration and so on. It was all burning away.

Watching it burn , you remembered what you wrote on the letter.

'I'm not really sure if there's a worse feeling in the world than being genuinely hated by your own parent, your own flesh and blood. The person who helped bring you into this world and who is supposed to raise you to be a success, happy and healthy.

The person who is supposed to love you unconditionally suddenly doesn't care for you at all. When your own parent tells you that you're not wanted, or that you should kill yourself, or calls you absolutely nasty and hurtful names, there's no way around it affecting you.

I am your child. That was a decision you made, whether it was voluntary or not, in the beginning, to have me and raise me.

Telling me that I am unwanted is incredibly painful, no matter whether or not you meant it at the time. Instead of having an abortion before I became too developed, or choosing to give me up for adoption to a family who would have loved me like you couldn't, you chose to keep me and to raise me. But you shouldn't have. That decision you made all of those years ago – it was so wrong though you'll never admit it.

I look around me and see my friends with their parents, a family filled to the brim to the point of overflowing, with love, support, care – all of the qualities that are generally associated with parents.

All of the qualities that you lacked while raising me. Most people my age have lovely memories from their childhood, full of family togetherness and fun, but when I think back on my childhood all I can remember anymore is the abuse I received on a regular basis.

But in a weird way , I would like to thank you.

If it weren't for the abuse I wouldn't have debuted with 9 amazing people , broke the record of most rookie awards in this industry , traveled the world , won the award of most influential female idol in kpop , had the most amazing experiences of my life , been in my dream career I never thought was possible , meet the love of my life , felt what it's like to be loved , and so much more.

Even though you messed me up mentally , physically and emotionally, you made me stronger and so I thank you.

I promise to never treat my future daughters or sons like the way you have treated me. I promise I will give them the most amazing life I can give them , because no one deserves to feel the pain I felt being with you.

This is the last goodbye . Thank you for nothing

From your no longer daughter ,

Nina Lee of straykids '

You felt tears well up in your eyes as you watched the last of the paper be burned into ashes that fell onto the ground.

You were embraced by your members and all of you stayed there being in each others comfort.

Once you calmed down you pulled away from the hug and wiped the tears of your face. And you couldn't help but a small smile from on your face.

"I know we always say this but , you don't need them , we are your family now. You always have us" changbin says and the others nod in agreement

"Let's go home , it's cold and no one needs to catch a cold" Chan says

"Thank you guys so much"

"Thank you"

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This chapter made me feel things on a real level.

Sorry for not updating things have been hard

Love y'all
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