Unheard Voice

Dosing Off

  God ur son got some concerns i followed the rules i pull my pants up, tighten my belt up, tucked my shirt in, ironed my pants, and press my shirt... None of dats enuff but constant judgement from da serpant is out lurkin but wat does he want from me!?!?! If we all made different why should i have to change.. Will my life be replaced with a better situation on a better day.. Its crazy how da world continuously throwin shade ruinin my name tho im not excludin me cuz i to is to blame at the right place sayin all the wrong things.. So yeah dat loss i am to blame i dropped da ball in a big game, shit drove me crazy.. An opportunity blown, its a damn shame but im just over whelmed in frustrations from all my colleagues moved up when im the nigga dat taught u wats up, God dis really SUCKS.. Its me? Or tough luck? Lord help me understand the source in which is the problem, so i can change things for my betterment and not become comfortable to stay stagnant.. GGGOOODDD!!!! but my emotion stems da source of my pain it racks my brain how success so close is begin seen from so far away..  Is my work not enough!?! Despite sometimes begin viewed as a jerk? Is my time now or im i suffern from vanity over steppin humbleness landin on the island of conceited? Wat about chasing after ya dreams ? Confidence, but God aint dat wat im gone need?  God dere gotta be better logical reason..

   Trynin not to be misleading lettin u know life is seen fa more dan make believing or dreaming.. For i am in disbelief when hear you express things from ur eyes for me to see.. My mistakes on center stage so you feel as were playin games.. For love is the justice to all da stains so careful u paint me ur picture of pain.. Emotions not high so u know dere sum doubt in mind, questions on steppin up God i begg to differ dat i worked enough agree to disagree i guess dats a must i see ur stuborn and so is I, trust!. God is dat wrong of me??  In deep thought till i fall asleep but no nap can unstrain da things on my brain.. So many questions few answers obtained..  Sometimes da strain has me drained especially when ive hustled on every play..  Why is perspective of da 1st impression carrys all da weight.. So im not entitled to have a bad day?? Yet contradictive and strange the overall concept has changed where who u know is a 100x better den knowin a million things.. Father wat u think?? Or am i going about handling things da wrong way??   Im only human so u know im goin be bias simple and plain..  So its only natural fa me to see things my way but now da stakes been raise.. So high risk!? or play it safe?? Either way its major change.. Speedin thru life doin 85mph in a 60mph lane.. God one thing is dat wreckless driving floating thru tracfic while switchn lanes.. New ball park new team but a gamble in itself with only ME to blame i guess dats wat happens when on a crash course and not begin strapped in.. U right father u know best.. So why worry its gon workout for da best.. God im dosing a dude need some rest thanks fa da talk i got alot off my chess..

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