Those thoughts came crawling back,
And they grabbed at my feet hungrily.
To be honest, I wasn't strong enough to kick them back,
I was slipping.
And as I was dragged to the bottom,
I remembered the whole reason I resurfaced.
I remembered how disgusted I was with myself,
And I remembered the people above the surface who love me.
I thought how painful that life was.
I thought how that life wasn't for me, not again.
So simply,
I kicked those evil thoughts away.
I felt strength now,
And I resurfaced to the life that I deserve.
To the people who make me happy,
The people who make life worth living.
And I found myself.