Jennie
We arrived at the hospital and immediately rushed Lisa to the ER. The doctors and nurses surrounded her and took her to the back. They said not to follow them and that they'll get us when she's ready. I couldn't hold it anymore.
This is my fault. Lisa's hurt because of me. She's almost dead because I'm not strong enough to fight alone...
"Chaeyoung..." I whisper
"It's okay, Jen. None of this is your fault. She's going to be fine. Keep your head up and we'll all push through this. We can all help Lisa out when she gets to leave the hospital. We should probably get out of here. She's hurt in an obscure way. Police will probably be here soon. Wendy, call me when she wakes up. Please."
Rosé has grown up so much in the last two years. She really has matured. I'm sorry you have to put up with me...
You're useless.
The world would be so much better without you around.
You think you're good for the world? Ha.
Just fucking die already.
No... Shut up. I'm here. I'm alive because of Lisa...
Because of Lisa...
"Jennie! Oh fuck! No! Let's get you out of here. Fuck. Wendy, Jisoo help me get her to the van."
Chaeng...
"Come on, Jen."
Jisoo...
Did I do something? Why can't I see anything? Am I okay?
Chaeyoung
I can hear the sirens. The first time I hurt somebody by breaking the law. I got caught on purpose. The person I hurt was my sister Alice. I hurt her. That's when I realized my parents didn't love me. That's when I realized nobody loved me. Until I met Jennie...
*Flashback*
I walked up the stairs and went on the roof, like every other day, but today someone beat me to it.
"I love you."
"You love the idea of me."
"I'm in love with you, Jennie Kim."
"You're in love with the idea of who Jennie Kim actually is. You think I'm some kind of amazing, popular, rich, beauty or some shit. I'm not. I'm sorry. But no. Please, leave me alone."
Step step step.
Someone from my class came running away in tears. They didn't even notice me.
"You can come out, Park."
Fuck. Uh. Um.
"I'm sorry. I always-"
"You always come up here during breaks in your schedule. It's a nice spot. You have your guitar hidden in the closet over there. You come up here to relax when you're stressed. I know it all. Don't worry."
"Wait. How did you-"
"I watch people. I observe. I learn. It's weird but I'm good at it."
"Who's your favorite person to watch?"
Why did I ask that? I don't even know her well.
"Hm. Lalisa Manoban. The Thai transfer student."
"Why?"
"She's cute. Are you curious as to what I've already learned about her?"
I nod my head.
"She loves to dance. She has straight A's. She's younger than both me and you. She's sensitive but not too sensitive. She doesn't really date. She sleeps with girls at parties though. Oh yeah she likes girls. From what I've heard she's good at the sexy stuff. She speaks three languages and she lives alone."
"She's been here for a month. Why do you know that much about her?"
"Chaeng, do you believe in love at first sight?"
Chaeng..?
"I do but I don't. I do for others. Not for myself."
"I fell in love with her at first sight."
She whispered this and looked away from me. She watched the world from a distance but never wanted to be involved in anything.
Jennie. It'll get better. I promise.
