Before Dark

These flowers that are form my tears

Amaya's POV

Thank you, for showing me the world I've always wanted to see. I didn't think I would be able to see it until I met you. In just a few hours my dream of seeing the rain and the world beyond my garden came true, my wish to reach someone came true, all because of you. But this is good bye...we're not meant to be together, because we're different form each other. You're human and I'm not. 

I never thought someone like me could still feel so many emotions. When you held my hand and ran off in the rain my chest tightened, but it wasn't the kind that would cause you pain it was a rather refreshing feeling, it made me feel light on my feet and for the first time ever I felt like I was free, I was happy. When I showed you who I really was, I could tell that you were afraid of me, the look of compassion and love in your eyes vanished and all I could see was utter fear and sadness, I felt the same way. When bid you good bye, I felt my chest tightened again, but this time it was the painful kind, I felt like I was suffocating. Tears, that I never knew I still had after all these years fell from my eyes, they fell so much I could almost drown in them. I wanted to stop crying, there was no reason for me to cry, I should have gotten used to this by now, but...I just couldn't stop.

So, what do I do now? I'm alone again, in this lifeless, desolate place. 

I want to see you again Kyouhei...

But I've already made my decision and there's no turning back anymore.

"I can be...really stupid sometimes." I told myself.

I wonder, how long has it been since I left that world. Perhaps only a few days have past. How have you been? I want to ask you so badly. Were you able to go up to that pointy tower thing? I really wanted to go there and see your world form up there, but I knew that would never happen.

"What was it called again?" I asked myself. 

Tokyo tower, I recalled. Every time I would remember those few hours with you I can't help but tear up and feel that painful sensation in my chest again, and whenever that happens, rain falls down.

In a place so desolate, where I've never even once seen a single drop of rain, somehow it pours. I've always wondered how that happened, ever since that day I came back every time I would shed a tear, the rain starts to fall. And that's also why, the flowers here started blooming again and that dried up old fountain finally has water again, I've been here for such a long time and I didn't even realize that the huge tree where my swing is attached to was a cherry blossom tree. During the day time, when it's not raining the tree would glow bright pink in the sunlight, and when it's petals would fall it was like a bunch of pink confetti showering me. At night, there would be blue fireflies who keep me company. I wish you were to see all of this Kyouhei, the flowers are so beautiful I bet you would love them.

"These flowers, they really are super pretty. Even though...even though they represent an incurable amount of pain."

Pain form wishing that I could've stayed just a bit longer, just a little bit longer with you. There were so many things I wanted to learn form you, so many things I wanted us to discover together. 

I wonder, if you were able to hear me for the last time. 

"Was I able to reach you?" I asked myself, as I started at the beautiful white butterfly flying around the garden. 

The butterfly rested itself on my finger, it was almost like it was looking me while smiling. The butterfly flew off and landed on a purple flower near by.

"Do you like these flowers?" I asked "These flowers that are form my tears."