Anger Issues

Chapter 5: Unicorns and Rainbows

I haven't told anyone what happened between me and Tyler, and what he did to me. I've tooken my anger out on my parents and Bebba, my grades went down, and I cut off Jhene and Marcia for the whole week and sat alone in lunch either crying or doing my homework.

Tyler's been raping me for two weeks, and doesn't use a condom.  He says it feels better doing it raw. My parents are wondering why I keep on going to his house all the time, and asks if we are dating.  And I give them a retarded look. I tell them  that we're finishing up the project that is due in two weeks. 

Thank goodness!   I pack my pencils and get the paper and head to his house, Dreading every step I take. I hope his mom is here so we won't do anything.  But boy was I wrong.  He opened the door and pulled me in and he kissed me.  

I never stopped loving him, even though he hurts me. I used to think that women were stupid as hell still loving a man that beats them until they start coughing up blood, but it turns out that I'm one of them now.  And I thought I had anger issues. 

He grabbed my hair and slammed me up against the wall and started to choke me.    " Who did you tell, bitch. WHO DID YOU TELL?!" He  said squeezing my neck tighter. I started crying and I was trying to scratch his hand to let me go.

His eyes turned black and his voice sounded like he was he was possessed by a demon. "You stupid bitch!" He said squeezing my neck tighter, then my vision faded, then everything turned black. I woke up to seeing him on top of me moaning and kissing my neck. 

Damn, how long have I been here? I thought in my mind.  I looked over at the clock, and it was  7:30. I wanted to go home and hug my mommy and daddy and Hassan.  But instead I'm getting fucked my this monster. 

"Oh, fuck!!" He said and I felt him bust inside of me. He wiped the sweat off of my forehead and kissed me. " I love you. " He said pushing himself inside of me again and started going in. I hope this nigga dies.  30 minutes later, he climbs off of me and gets in the shower. 

Later that night, I do the work while he goes to sleep and I tapped his shoulder. "Im done now. It's all finished." And he snatched it from me and looked at it.  " Good job. Now get out. And don't come back."

Was he serious? Do I get to never come back again? This is too good to be true! I threw on my clothes, and grabbed my stuff, went downstairs, and darted out the door. I ran out laughing because,  I was finally free!! I run down the street and around the corner.

When I get home, I run to my parents and give them a big hug.  They looked at eachother wondering what they missed. 

     "Did I miss something? " My dad said petting my hair.  I shook my head and squeezed bothers of them tighter.  " Im just glad that your my parents, and I love you so much, no matter how mad you make me." I said half way crying.  " So, um are you done with the project? " He said and I nodded my head.

My mom patted my back and said "Go wash up, and get ready for dinner, after that, do your homework and go to bed. You have an early day tomorrow"

I rolled my eyes and went upstairs to wash my hands.  I song a song for about two minutes and I just started random dancing and laughing.  I haven't done that in a while.  I haven't even been happy in a while either.

" Solana, get down here and eat dinner!!!" I heard my mom scream. Damn, why is she so hard on me, lately? I went downstairs, and sat at the table next to Hassan and watched my dad and mom pray different prayers to their gods.

We we're having goulash, and it smelled like shit. I usually don't smell like that, and I wonder why it does now. I try to put it in my mouth, but I gagged, and threw it up. " Ewww!" My little brother says. " I didn't know that my cooking was that bad!" My mom said laughing. 

" Oh, no mom! It's just that, I didn't eat breakfast this morning, and my stomach didn't have anything in it all day." You fucking liar. 

After I ate, I went upstairs and turned on my music and layed down looking at the ceiling again like I always do. Oh shit, thats it.  Tyler forgot to give me those birth control pills. What  if I'm pregnant? Oh no. I can't be. I pray to God that I'm not, even though I'm aitheist.  Ok don't think about this. Unicorns and Rainbows, Unicorns and Rainbows.