Dreams

Tiramisu

"I wanted to fall in love...
Light as a feather.
Don't want to be a burden...
But wanna be a reason to make you smile.

I wanted to fall in love...
Like I have never been..
Don't want to leave...
But wanted to stay until we grow older.

But everything remains a dream.
When you ripped my dream
Brutally as a murderer.
Didn't think about my love for you...

It grew and died just like the flower you didn't take care of...
Like a hammer, you broke my heart into a million pieces...

I leave by collecting my broken pieces...
I hoped someone else will value it.
But nobody came...

And my wishes for falling in love...
Remains a dream..."

"Aru, you there??"

Quietly closing my diary I replied to my mom.
"Yes, mom..."

Honey, it's nearly 1 o'clock ..why aren't you sleeping yet? Don't you have classes tomorrow??

"Yeah I have.. I was about to go to bed..just revised my homework..."
Before leaving the room mom looked at me once more with her loving tiny grin on her face and said,
"You know Aru I am so proud of you and I know you will go a long way..now go to bed.. I will make your favorite tiramisu tomorrow.. don't forget to invite your friends ..Okay sweety?

"Ok, mom...good night.." I say

"Goodnight".. she closed the door... I took a long breath.. "inviting friends" I mutter...

I am having weird dreams lately. I could not sleep better last night. I don't know  why but those dreams make me uncomfortable I guess. Those  are so long for that can hardly be called dreams anymore... its like um living there.

"Aru breakfast is ready. Get down, honey!!"

"yeah, mom..." I took my backpack and replied.

I walked straight to the dining room and took my seat for breakfast. The kitchen seems messy compared to the other days. I keep staring at the mess that she created with  those  boxes and packets. Mom  noticed the way I was looking .
She started all excited ,
"I got all the ingredients for  tiramisu. So its kinda messy right now. But don't worry i'll wrap it up before you come back ." mom said with a smile on her face. She does enjoy cooking  spacially for such occasions as I dont have any friends she just wants to help with what she has.

"mom, but there are no occasions around... are there any guest is going to visit us?" I ask as if I have no idea about what she said last night and notice that she made a straight face... more of an annoying emoji types!!! 
I fegure there's no out from this tiramisu and whole friend and hangout thing.

"What did I tell you last night? that I will be making tiramisu today and asked you to bring your friends? listen ms you need to hang with them.. You cannot spend the whole semester alone... can you!!??" her questions seem like she's ordering more than asking!

"Mom I am not going to be alone. I'll figure it out about making friends without you bribing them tiramisu. I reassure her then I add grumpily" and I don't find anything wrong about being alone in School.

She took a deep sigh and rolled her eyes. "Okay, fine. I will not interfere in your matters anymore.. but Aru I don't want you to be alone by yourself like you always did in your entire school life!! I want you to be more independent and more lively." I can see the worriness in her eyes. I know whatever is she's doing its all for me. I never had friends like others of my age. And one of my moms  friends told her about depression so she's thinking that I,m depressed for some reason. But that's absurd. That must be...am I!

"Mom am getting late for class. I better go..... and if you still want to make tiramisu than please do, I don't know about friends, but I am dying to have homemade tiramisu !!" I say  with my happy face .The last sentence seems to work more than the whole thing. Anyone can say it by looking at her grin!!