⚠️ abuse warning self harming ⚠️
billies pov:
my security made me stay on the bus. i could just hear the horrible argument from outside.
y/n's pov:
i quickly got off the bus and ran towards my dad's arms. he just punched me to the floor. "baby girl why didn't you listen to me. you should've listen to me baby doll. i told you in and out now what the fuck are you playing at" he shouted quieter than before. "i-" "DID I SAY YOU COULD FUCKING SPEAK BITCH" he spat cutting me off. he grabbed me by the throat and pinned me against the venue wall. i couldn't breathe. i mean i deserved this i should've told billie to ignore it. "so bitch tell me what happened" he shouted in my ear as he dropped me to the floor and kicked me. "she grabbed my arm and it hurt on a brusie then she lifted up my sleves and made her security take me backstage so she could talk to me and i swear i didn't tell her anything daddy i love you too much" i lied quicky. the quicker i talk the less trouble i'm in. "you better not have done!" he scowled as he smashed my head into the brick wall. he punched me a few more time. i screamed every time he came in contact with me because he'd always hit another bruise.
billies pov:
i could hear her screams and the abuse he was shouting out her. i watched in horror from inside the tour bus. everytime he'd do something to her she'd apologise and scream in pain. i couldn't do anything and the police hadn't shown up yet. all my security had to stay on the bus with me and couldn't help her. their was nothing we could do. her screams broke me. i cling to my mum and cried still watching the scene unfold outside my window.
"LET THE GIRL GO NOW WE HAVE GUNS AND TASERS SET TO STUN" i heard a police man shout. i sigh of relief escaped my lungs as i heard a taser go off, soon the relief turned to fear as i heard y/n scream again. they missed the taser. her scream was replaced by what i can only assume to be her dads. i look out the window again and see both of them on the foor with police surrounding her dad, restraining him. i quickly ran off the bus and scooped y/n up and hurried back on to the bus. she looked terrible. she was bleeding loads and more bruises were forming. her muscles were still spazzing from the taser. my mum and security quickly rushed to take her from me. "NO LEAVE HER ALONE!" i screamed as everyone backed away. i placed her gently on one of the sofas. "ms. eilish we have to get going now" my driver called. i just nodded my head and focused back onto y/n.
y/n's pov:
everything was so distant. i could hear everyone rushing around me trying to clean me up. i couldn't open my eyes; everything hurt. luckily nothing was broken. i knew this from previous experiences. "nothings broken" i croaked out in a raspy voice.
billies pov:
y/n just spoke for the first time after going to see her dad. "are you sure?" i questioned, confused on how she knew. "yeah i'm sure it would be a lot worse it i had" she mustered finnally opening her eyes. she tried to sit up but i laid her back down. "you need to rest mamas"
she ignored me and sat back up. "please lay down i don't want you getting anymore hurt" i beg y/n hoping she will listen. again she ignored me, she rolled up her top and started to look at all her cuts and bruises pressing on most of them. it looked really bad, i don't understand how anyone could do this to their own child, especially not one this cute.
y/n's pov:
billie kept trying to get me to lay down. i didn't listen i needed to check my bruises and i needed to release everything. i needed to find the bathroom on this bus. i always keep a blade on me at all times just incase a situation ever happened. "where's the toilet?" i asked quietly, "through there and on the right" billie spoke softly. i quickly dashed off into the toilet and pull the blade out my shoe. i slid the blade against my skin, pushing down making sure i draw blood. watching the blood fall is a metaphor to me of all the pain just leaking out. i slide the blade across my arm a few more times going in deeper and deeper. once i had about 15 cuts i realised i probably had been in here quite a long time and everyone might get suspicious so i quickly clean up and head bad to billie making sure my arms are cover. if she found out what i've done i'm sure she's gonna be mad and me and kick me out. i mean she's gonna have to leave me at someone point i can't just stay on tour with her; if i do when tour is over i'll have no where to go plus i don't know where my dad lives so i can't get back there.
a/n i promise only the first few chapters are this dark, i promise it will get better
